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2good11you
Sep 21, 2025
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i dont think i have felt pure hatred for every part of my identity right now, so much so that i struggle to write it or put it into words, i feel as if i am fundamentally broken. nothing can be changed about me. i feel like an impostor surrounding himself with superior people. i am disposable scum, if my identity was truly uncovered no one would miss me.
 
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joey2424

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What makes you think that the people you're surrounded with are superior?
 
eggsausagerice

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What makes you think that the people you're surrounded with are superior?
for me i feel like they're intrinsically more human than me. while i struggle with social cues, making friends, getting a job, and going to school, other people are able to handle that and succeed in life. they don't even have to be doing well in the stereotypical sense, they just have to be doing better than me. there's a lot of ways that people can feel superior to me. sometimes i feel how worse i am when i'm next to someone that doesn't hate themselves and has friends that care about them. it makes me wonder how someone can be so happy when i feel so miserable and bitter most of the time. being trans and "wrong" to society is a big source of my self hatred, because some people might legitimately hate me or judge me for wanting to be who i am. my parents also make me feel like a loser for not being able to move out.
 
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doomedbynarrative

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Losing more of myself every day.
Jan 21, 2026
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i dont think i have felt pure hatred for every part of my identity right now, so much so that i struggle to write it or put it into words, i feel as if i am fundamentally broken. nothing can be changed about me. i feel like an impostor surrounding himself with superior people. i am disposable scum, if my identity was truly uncovered no one would miss me.
No one is superior to another person. At our core, we are all quite similar to animals. We just have more brain tools to modulate our behaviors than other animals. Everyone is capable of doing bad things and much in life is based on random chance.

Thus, every being is valuable and matters and in light of that, you matter too.
 
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2good11you
Sep 21, 2025
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What makes you think that the people you're surrounded with are superior?
everyone around me just knows so much more than i possibly ever could to a point where it feels like i dont actually enjoy anything i talk about, but in general i feel like a fundamentally broken person with no possibility of change, that has slithered itself with people that are completely remote from me in many ways
 
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Jan 22, 2026
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everyone around me just knows so much more than i possibly ever could to a point where it feels like i dont actually enjoy anything i talk about, but in general i feel like a fundamentally broken person with no possibility of change, that has slithered itself with people that are completely remote from me in many ways
Why do u look down on urself tho. Wouldnt being surrounded by people that are interested in things u are not make them less interesting?
Wouldnt u want to interact with people similar to u , hell even view them as special because for u they will click.
Why does ur brain go to self hatred. If there is something u should hate wouldnt that be ur environment instead.
Being different is the coolest shit ever. Hell personally it makes me feel special in a good way
 

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