Random suicidal feelings

[EmptyTrashCan]

I know I'm not the only one who has ever, in the middle of nothing,, such as boredom or sometimes even 'happy' moments, want to kill themselves.
I can't explain it sometimes, others I know it's because of certain things. But right now, during my online classes I feel an intense need to, somehow, just die.
But I can't, because I've convinced myself into learning and completely understanding something new before dying. However I'm feeling desperate.
How about y'all?

 

[Lone_Gray_Wolf]

That happened to me in the middle of my worst depression phase. When suicide was in mind at all times, and just by walking around the house random ideas of how to kill myself would show up or I would just start imagining myself dead. That still happens to me but in a less agressive way. I would think that something triggered a reaction, and those desires to be dead showed up suddenly while u were on class... Either way, if is that or not; the desire to cbt still there.

 

[EmptyTrashCan]

That happened to me in the middle of my worst depression phase. When suicide was in mind at all times, and just by walking around the house random ideas of how to kill myself would show up or I would just start imagining myself dead. That still happens to me but in a less agressive way. I would think that something triggered a reaction, and those desires to be dead showed up suddenly while u were on class... Either way, if is that or not; the desire to cbt still there.

That's so interesting. And yeah i see, these desires are always present. I'm happy that you don't experience those desires as aggressively as before.

 

[BehindTheWall]

It happens to me randomly, but more often when I'm working. I keep thinking about it all day long. I'm like « Fuck this, I'Il do it » and hours after I'm giving up because I think about the sadness of my parents, my sister and brother and my gf.

I'm fighting about my own thoughts.

 

[EmptyTrashCan]

It happens to me randomly, but more often when I'm working. I keep thinking about it all day long. I'm like « Fuck this, I'Il do it » and hours after I'm giving up because I think about the sadness of my parents, my sister and brother and my gf.

I'm fighting about my own thoughts.

You got it man, fighting one-self's thoughts is always harder than fighting any other thing or individual.

 

[HowardRatner]

Same thing happens to me man, I think I will CTB in a few weeks, I don't know but everything I think about is suicide.