idk if this is the best place to talk about this but here we go
so ill be telling a story and ranting about some experiences of mine with ex friends.
it all started when i was in my early years as a kid, i was 7 and then i became friends with this girl who we'll call veil (not her name ofc). veil and i met through a mutual connection (another friend i have who we'll call celebi, that's his favorite pokemon.) and the fact that we're classmates. and pink, my childhood bestfriend. she's another artist who back at the time was obsessed with my little pony and anime as well.
people would always compare me to either veil or pink and even both because they're good artists and im not. this really pissed me off but i hid it. anyway veil contacts pink and spreading lies about me. me and celebi were still friends because he did not care about that drama. the guy cared about his interests.
besides that ive been kinda the butt of a joke for many people, often about things i do or what i say and also many people shipped me and celebi together which was ironic for celebi because the girl he loved was one of the masterminds while i was basically like a sibling to him. it really pissed me off because people would rope my parents into it and my parents joked about it but definitely did not take kindly to it, i really didnt want to see them angry. even veil is on in this joke, she hangs out with the other popular kids, she's literally one of them, she even became the president of the student council multiple times out of popularity.
veil is what we call a drama queen. she cannot live without stirring the pot and she always has issues, she started drama with me and pink. at first she tried manipulating pink against me and then she just fully hated her and they had fights a lot of the times, veil would often do some petty things towards her for no reason and be jealous that she's nice to me??? like you're attacking her obviously she wouldn't like you. she tried to keep us apart and she was jealous of pink and me. years later veil confesses her love to me which just really weirds me out because yes we did have a bond but i felt like i was trapped with her. she is controlling and really demanding and i had to bend over backwards to appease her.
i also had my issues since i was envious of her and pink, but especially her since she's loved by many despite not being that good of a person at all and eventually she became successful while i stayed in the background. i was a jealous loser who wanted to be popular. literally i was similar to greg heffley and pink is similar to rowley and yes, me and pink are not talking anymore. i was also not a good person, i was very arrogant and stupidly blunt without the regards of other people's feelings and gullible.
which brings me to another story years later, much closer to what we are now.
basically a similar thing happened. there's guys im friends with, id call the first one jeff, the second one, my best friend at the time as gem.
jeff is controlling except he is way worse than veil, he practically stalked me and was a fucking weirdo. gem meanwhile is my friend who likes the same things as i am.
jeff also took pictures of me randomly and saved them and it was creepy as hell. he also tried harassing me and i tried telling everyone but nobody listened. anyway jeff is successful rn with a lot of friends meanwhile im failing college because of my issues and the traumas he gave me.
i know thats long winded its just why does some people despite how horrible they are still have supporters who fully know what they did but support them? i dont get it. is it charisma? veil has her own issues and we were kids so i do have some grace for her actions (although tbh she didnt change, the girl sent me death threats for apologizing to her and pink and another friend we had, i went over all the things i went wrong in and somehow she thought that was an attack against her and she was making herself the victim.) jeff meanwhile is not a good person at all, he's just really great at seeming meek and pretending to be nice but was two faced not to mention him being a straight up weirdo.
why is this world so unfair honestly??? people like them are loved meanwhile i am not and im suffering all these alone. it makes me think that maybe something is wrong with me even though the past few years ive been trying to make myself better.
anyway thats it, sorry for the story time.
so ill be telling a story and ranting about some experiences of mine with ex friends.
it all started when i was in my early years as a kid, i was 7 and then i became friends with this girl who we'll call veil (not her name ofc). veil and i met through a mutual connection (another friend i have who we'll call celebi, that's his favorite pokemon.) and the fact that we're classmates. and pink, my childhood bestfriend. she's another artist who back at the time was obsessed with my little pony and anime as well.
people would always compare me to either veil or pink and even both because they're good artists and im not. this really pissed me off but i hid it. anyway veil contacts pink and spreading lies about me. me and celebi were still friends because he did not care about that drama. the guy cared about his interests.
besides that ive been kinda the butt of a joke for many people, often about things i do or what i say and also many people shipped me and celebi together which was ironic for celebi because the girl he loved was one of the masterminds while i was basically like a sibling to him. it really pissed me off because people would rope my parents into it and my parents joked about it but definitely did not take kindly to it, i really didnt want to see them angry. even veil is on in this joke, she hangs out with the other popular kids, she's literally one of them, she even became the president of the student council multiple times out of popularity.
veil is what we call a drama queen. she cannot live without stirring the pot and she always has issues, she started drama with me and pink. at first she tried manipulating pink against me and then she just fully hated her and they had fights a lot of the times, veil would often do some petty things towards her for no reason and be jealous that she's nice to me??? like you're attacking her obviously she wouldn't like you. she tried to keep us apart and she was jealous of pink and me. years later veil confesses her love to me which just really weirds me out because yes we did have a bond but i felt like i was trapped with her. she is controlling and really demanding and i had to bend over backwards to appease her.
i also had my issues since i was envious of her and pink, but especially her since she's loved by many despite not being that good of a person at all and eventually she became successful while i stayed in the background. i was a jealous loser who wanted to be popular. literally i was similar to greg heffley and pink is similar to rowley and yes, me and pink are not talking anymore. i was also not a good person, i was very arrogant and stupidly blunt without the regards of other people's feelings and gullible.
which brings me to another story years later, much closer to what we are now.
basically a similar thing happened. there's guys im friends with, id call the first one jeff, the second one, my best friend at the time as gem.
jeff is controlling except he is way worse than veil, he practically stalked me and was a fucking weirdo. gem meanwhile is my friend who likes the same things as i am.
jeff also took pictures of me randomly and saved them and it was creepy as hell. he also tried harassing me and i tried telling everyone but nobody listened. anyway jeff is successful rn with a lot of friends meanwhile im failing college because of my issues and the traumas he gave me.
i know thats long winded its just why does some people despite how horrible they are still have supporters who fully know what they did but support them? i dont get it. is it charisma? veil has her own issues and we were kids so i do have some grace for her actions (although tbh she didnt change, the girl sent me death threats for apologizing to her and pink and another friend we had, i went over all the things i went wrong in and somehow she thought that was an attack against her and she was making herself the victim.) jeff meanwhile is not a good person at all, he's just really great at seeming meek and pretending to be nice but was two faced not to mention him being a straight up weirdo.
why is this world so unfair honestly??? people like them are loved meanwhile i am not and im suffering all these alone. it makes me think that maybe something is wrong with me even though the past few years ive been trying to make myself better.
anyway thats it, sorry for the story time.
