random rant

[devil]

is it considered selfish if i still want to ctb even if things are starting to be okay?
like things aren't exactly bad right now, most people would say that
" my life is great and others wish they could have what i have " but i honestly just
don't feel happy anymore, no matter how great things end up being. i don't exactly
want to stick around and see this world get worse, i can barely handle everything that's
going on right now. this world honestly sucks and i feel like the future is going to be just
as shitty. i wish i could trade my life off to someone who desperately wants it.

 

[SterileMoth]

I can't say if it's selfish or not, but I'm in the same spot. Really, my life isn't that bad right now, but I'm still tinkering around with how I'm going to ctb in the end.