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[nomoredolor]

I want to die
I want to die
I want to die
Life is so unbearable sometimes
I hate it here
And I think I hate myself for not saving him
I was trying to make it to the fall. Late fall. But I don't know if that's in the cards
I hate hurting the people around me
I'm blessed to have a support system
Some people have nobody and nothing
And I still want to die
Even tho I have support and it's going to hurt them
I just want the pain to stop I don't want to hurt them
I hope I die soon
I can't do this anymore
Sucks that's life had to be like this
And death
Sucks that I had to be like this
People in my life will tell you I'm a good person
I'm not so sure
I have Grace for everyone else
but irs hard to muster any for myself
I don't know what I'm fucking doing
I know I have potential if I stay Alive
But I don't want to stay alive
I want peace and escape
I hate it here in the USA
It's a shitshow here and there are literal fucking nazis
Please god let me die?
I just want to talk to him one more time
I love him
And he's dead
And he's never fucking coming back
He's dead
He's dead
My best friend is dead
The one I'm in love with is dead
I wasn't worth staying for
And it's my fault he's gone
Please god have pity and end me please
FUCK
THIS
PAIN

 

[TheHolySword]

Sending you hugs if that is okay. I'm so sorry for everything you've lost, everything you're going through. I'm sorry that this is where life has led you. I hope one day you can know true peace.

 

[BlueButterfly111]

You didn't deserve this. I'm so sorry Anna. I wish that there was something I could say to make the pain stop. If it helps any, you being here and reading your words always helps me a lot and makes me feel less alone. This made me tear up, wish I could give you a big hug! Sending love and hugs your way.

 

[nomoredolor]

Sending you hugs if that is okay. I'm so sorry for everything you've lost, everything you're going through. I'm sorry that this is where life has led you. I hope one day you can know true peace.

Your hugs are worth their weight in gold thank you and I want peace for you too

You didn't deserve this. I'm so sorry Anna. I wish that there was something I could say to make the pain stop. If it helps any, you being here and reading your words always helps me a lot and makes me feel less alone. This made me tear up, wish I could give you a big hug! Sending love and hugs your way.

your posts make me feel less alone too. And I also want to make your pain stop, I would take it all away if I could. I'm thankful for you and thank you for your kind words and hugs and love