Question about the carbon monoxide method

[Iwouldratherdie]

Is it normal to have ringing in the ears that increases and to not be able to walk straight at all. I need to do this method but I'm worried that I could end up paralyzed instead of dead.
the charcoal grill/chimney starter method.
also I remember my chest feeling heavy and my breathing getting slower. if I took a sleeping pill what would I feel then. Any tips on how I can get through this method without the fear of being paralyzed stopping me?

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

I think I recall people describing those symptoms before. I've done a lot of reading on the method on SS and I'm almost positive I came across those symptoms.

Edit: I knew it was something I read recently. It was your thread, posted April 15.

 

[Living sucks]

I do not intend to be an asshole or insensitive. I understand your life is not good right now. But maybe you should consider a different method? I'm afraid you're only making matters worse by hurting yourself with irreversible damage. CO method has damaging affects that don't show immediately and can damage you forever. Please read some posts by @Lion84 ... they did not do CO but tried helium gas with exit bag and caused brain damage. You are breathing a poison. I'm not a prolifer and everyone should choose when they need to go if they've exhausted all other means.
We've tried to answer your questions and help you. Not sure how else we can help. Would talking to someone help?

I own a chimney starter and have a mini grill and charcoal briquettes coming. If I were to light the coal in a small room on the chimney starter and the mini grill and just inhale the fumes what would happen? would my eyes and throat burn and I wouldn't go unconscious? Do I light the charcoal outside first? I looked at instructions and I'm still not sure how. can somebody please give info on how to do this correctly I need to do this soon.

How many briquettes would it take for carbon monoxide poisoning to kill me

in order to use the charcoal method I have to light the chimney starter with the charcoal inside with newspapers on the bottom, then poor cold water on the starter and wait for the smoke to dissipate then I bring the chimney starter in a small room ( a bathroom of car) and wait? Is that all? I'm sure i want to use this method and I don't want to do this wrong. Just need somebody who has tried this method to correct me if I'm wrong.
i looked at the resource page it wasn't very clear to me.

How are you supposed to light the charcoal? Last night I tested it by putting a nonstick pan on the bottom with shredded newspapers underneath my chimney starter then I lit the newspapers The flame went out after a couple seconds. Please answer I don't have much time left.

Also how long will it take to die

I'm really worried my dad has a habit of lying about me and I'm worried he might say I was trying to do something to him(i'm not.) He's lied to the police about me before by twisting small details to make them look dangerous. I'm also worried if he Interrupts me and I'll end up in a straight jacket in a mental hospital with needles, that scares me so much. I just want to end my life without people blackmailing me or interrupting me. I'm going to try the charcoal method with my chimney starter tonight

i have kingsford instant charcoal briquettes
kingsford chimney starter
matches
mini grill
cardboard to light charcoal in chimney starter(I don't have newspaper).
1. light cardboard under the chimney with (at least 8 briquettes?).
2. Wait until they are all white
3. put white briquettes on tray on top of mini grill with water on the bottom tray of the mini grill.
4. bring mini grill with water and white briquettes in the car for 25 minutes
5. go in the car
6. Take calming medication.(magnesium, ashwaganda. Melatonin, or cbd).
7. Fall asleep.
8. Die.
If there's anything I got wrong about the method or anything else I'm forgetting please tell me ASAP.

I currently have my charcoal grill in the car with glowing briquettes inside it has been in there for at least an hour. im Still unsure if I should go in after it builds up and the briquettes are still glowing or do I (go in right when I put the grill in. Also I'm really scared if I don't do this right will I end up like a human vegetable?

Does carbon monoxide still release from charcoal that's not glowing? I'm in my car with briquettes that are ashy gray but not burning or glowing anymore. how do I know if this is working?

I put the glowing briquettes in the car and waited. My ears started ringing increasingly my body started to feel heavy. I got so scared i just wish I were dead already without going through the process of dying. I ran out of the car and I was wobbling all over I couldn't walk straight at all and my ears were ringing so loud. My dad is abusive but of course when I panic I turn into a little child and I cried to my dad like a baby even though he's done nothing but abuse me. He locked the car and threw away my grill i still want to end it all. If I don't do it right now all hell will break loose. My dad said if I don't get out of the car he would call the ambulance and police. i got out and he locked the door and thew my last charcoal out and my grill. Does anybody know what methods you would use if you wanted least psychologically scary methods that I don't have to learn and I can do right now. I wish I didn't chicken out but I got so worried that if I was going to fail and have an oxygen deprived brain but still be alive like a human vegetable. Can someone please tell me what to do NOW. My dad won't let me be alone now and If I don't end it right now something far worse awaits me. PLEASE HELP.

Maybe you could find another member here who had tried CO method and failed and pm each other for advice?

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

Any tips on how I can get through this method without the fear of being paralyzed stopping me?

That's a rational fear, and I can't imagine that anyone can make you stop being afraid unless they lie to you and tell you that you what you fear won't happen.

You've aborted this method because of the fear. You don't have confidence in the method. I would say it's best to start researching other methods if you're determined to ctb. There's a list of method megathreads as well as a link to a copy of the PPH in the Resources Compilation.

 

[NothingElseMatters]

Charcoal burning looks like a peaceful method, but I'm not sure, I never tried.