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im alive but im dead, awake but asleep
- Sep 14, 2023
- 26
hello. For the past few years I've been self harming i have used: a small knife, an unsharpened switchblade (i was desperate, okay?) and pencil sharpener blades. I can't find razor blades for sale at any local stores and my old box cutter got taken by my dad for one of his work projects. Besides that, it's too big and the imprint (is that how it's said?) can be seen while I'm wearing my sweatpants inside the house. I cut while in my bathroom, so I can't just walk through my kitchen towards that place with a big ass box cutter in my pockets without my mum noticing. She already knows I've cut before, same with my dad, but luckily I haven't been put into an institution or have gone to a psychiatrist.
How can I cut without it being too obvious? I want my cuts to be deep enough to bleed, just not deep enough to need stitching. The sharpener blades are shit and my nails are pretty long so I can't even get a good grip on it, meaning it barely works.
How can I cut without it being too obvious? I want my cuts to be deep enough to bleed, just not deep enough to need stitching. The sharpener blades are shit and my nails are pretty long so I can't even get a good grip on it, meaning it barely works.
