Putting together my SN kit

[Ghost2211]

I ordered meto today, and need to wait like a week for it. I ordered a carry bag, cups, ml measuring cup, kitchen scale, antacids, and vomit bags.

Last night ex told me he had been emotionally cheating for 15 Months with the woman he hooked up with 2 weeks after leaving me. Truth be told I already knew, and have been calling him out on in for the last couple months. He's has lying about it up until now.

i can't take anymore. Ive been treated like and thrown away like trash. I cant live with him and I can't live without him. I'm working on tying up loose ends and making preparation. i can tell the end is getting closer.

 

[Oyoy]

Don't do that. You have kids, right. They matter. He's trash.

 

[LMLN]

I'm so sorry for your terrible situation. Maybe having everything on hand will give you some peace. I know it has for me, I dont feel so trapped.
We are here to listen whatever you decide.

 

[Ghost2211]

I eat one of these every morning. It's not enough to make me too dopey, and I get everything done still. It removes the impulsiveness, and makes it so I can eat. One lasts basically all day. kids are only reason Im still here I would have been Gone 2 months ago. If I'm not mildly stoned all the time all I can think about is how mich I want to die. Wtf did I do to deserve this....

Edit to clarify. Whole bag is 500, each candy is only 10.

 

[Mm80]

Im sorry to hear this roseybird. Please dontbdo anything on impulse though, id imagine your very hurt right now. Pls dont rush and give youtself as much time as you need x we will be here either way x

 

[LMLN]

I eat one of these every morning. It's not enough to make me too dopey, and I get everything done still. It removes the impulsiveness, and makes it so I can eat. One lasts basically all day. kids are only reason Im still here I would have been Gone 2 months ago. If I'm not mildly stoned all the time all I can think about is how mich I want to die. Wtf did I do to deserve this....

Edit to clarify. Whole bag is 500, each candy is only 10.

It's so interesting how this affects different people. When I use gummies it makes me really really sad and focused on the sadness. I'm glad they help you!

 

[BearNoMore]

I ordered meto today, and need to wait like a week for it. I ordered a carry bag, cups, ml measuring cup, kitchen scale, antacids, and vomit bags.

Last night ex told me he had been emotionally cheating for 15 Months with the woman he hooked up with 2 weeks after leaving me. Truth be told I already knew, and have been calling him out on in for the last couple months. He's has lying about it up until now.

i can't take anymore. Ive been treated like and thrown away like trash. I cant live with him and I can't live without him. I'm working on tying up loose ends and making preparation. i can tell the end is getting closer.

Im so sorry you are hurting like this and were betrayed in that way. I know how deep the pain can run. Try your best not to make any emotional decisions or take any actions when you are not clear headed. I have found that CBD has helped me a lot (along with normal edibles). When I am panicked and anxious and feel like making impulsive choices it helps calm me. Maybe try that out too.

I have all my supplies besides meto in hand as well (I just updated my thread if you've seen it). I also just lost my partner I dearly loved. I am here to talk if you need. Everyone is here to support you.