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ZiggyStardust
Member
- Mar 8, 2019
- 54
my desire to CTB is gathering momentum (slow and steady upwards trajectory) and I am starting to put my affairs in order. It is not a matter of 'getting the hell outta here' but doing it with full consciousness that it will be final. My previous attempts were driven by pain and suffering - this time it is different altogether.
I started noticing changes about six months ago, by the way I related to other people, tying up loose ends etc. I am flying overseas in a couple of weeks to spend some time on a pilgrimage (not religious, just a popular path which appealed to me for spending alone time), meet up with my brother and my best friend (separately) and spend quality time with them, knowing it will be the last time.
I am going to pre-pay my burial and get all my stuff sorted - because that feels like the right thing to do.
My body is starting to break down (literally, through early onset osteo) and I just got diagnosed with skin cancer. My doctor urged me to have surgery of course but she doesn't know about my plan. It's like a 'seal of approval' from my body - a visible mark, like a stamp, telling me my intuition was right, it is time to CTB.
I knew, back in November, when I didn't renew the membership for my footy team - dead giveaway that something was up (pardon the pun).
I feel utterly calm and resolved, especially now that I have found the right spot for the fatal faint and already managed to make myself pass out. Putting affairs in order also means destroying all my electronic gadgets (because I am a very private person), not leaving a note - other than to say: stop looking,there is no note. There is nothing to say other than that 'it's time'.
At the moment I am researching cheapest burial options, have considered donating my body to science but don't live within the intake area.
I am not sure about a will - as far as I know it has to be co-signed by someone else, I don't have anyone I feel comfortable asking. What do I do here? (Australian laws apply, please don't answer this unless you know those laws, thanks)
I started noticing changes about six months ago, by the way I related to other people, tying up loose ends etc. I am flying overseas in a couple of weeks to spend some time on a pilgrimage (not religious, just a popular path which appealed to me for spending alone time), meet up with my brother and my best friend (separately) and spend quality time with them, knowing it will be the last time.
I am going to pre-pay my burial and get all my stuff sorted - because that feels like the right thing to do.
My body is starting to break down (literally, through early onset osteo) and I just got diagnosed with skin cancer. My doctor urged me to have surgery of course but she doesn't know about my plan. It's like a 'seal of approval' from my body - a visible mark, like a stamp, telling me my intuition was right, it is time to CTB.
I knew, back in November, when I didn't renew the membership for my footy team - dead giveaway that something was up (pardon the pun).
I feel utterly calm and resolved, especially now that I have found the right spot for the fatal faint and already managed to make myself pass out. Putting affairs in order also means destroying all my electronic gadgets (because I am a very private person), not leaving a note - other than to say: stop looking,there is no note. There is nothing to say other than that 'it's time'.
At the moment I am researching cheapest burial options, have considered donating my body to science but don't live within the intake area.
I am not sure about a will - as far as I know it has to be co-signed by someone else, I don't have anyone I feel comfortable asking. What do I do here? (Australian laws apply, please don't answer this unless you know those laws, thanks)