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Unsure_about_living
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- May 6, 2020
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Mainly having a rant, so no worries if no one replies (though grateful if they do!). One day in work and I'm so full of anxiety and stress over everything work-related as well as everything "fun". All the things I'm meant to enjoy, and expected to enjoy, are hard and unpleasant. I didn't go and do a hobby today because I just felt inexplicably.... Eurgh about it all. And this isn't a new thing.
I don't know what to do, because I'm so conscious that I don't have the balls to actually ctb (I've had SN for months and haven't taken it, even when I had to self-isolate because of catching covid). Currently I'm fantasising about just going for a long, drunk walk and letting whatever happens happen to me. Be that turning up at A&E, stepping in front of a car, or just coming home tired. I realise this makes me attention seeking... But I don't know how else to do this
I don't know what to do, because I'm so conscious that I don't have the balls to actually ctb (I've had SN for months and haven't taken it, even when I had to self-isolate because of catching covid). Currently I'm fantasising about just going for a long, drunk walk and letting whatever happens happen to me. Be that turning up at A&E, stepping in front of a car, or just coming home tired. I realise this makes me attention seeking... But I don't know how else to do this