Life_and_Death
Do what's best for you šÆļø Sometimes I'm stressed
- Jul 1, 2020
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I'm not me. I don't even know who me is. These disorders control the way I think, the way I feel, the way I act. Nothing is me anymore. This goes beyond depressed thoughts. I literally control nothing, not even the things i say. I do nothing right.
Hell thanks to my stupid parents I can't even breath right. My life was destroyed the day I was born. Thanks to them I got kicked out of school. I can't get a job. I'm not stable enough to live alone. I'm horrible at relationships. And that's barely the beginning.
I never wanted much. A loving family. A nice little home. The most I wanted out of life was my own business. But it's all gone. It's not like my life was "that bad"
How can I keep saying that? I've had people tell me to stop, if the mental state I'm currently in doesn't say enough. You don't exactly get mental disorders as bad as I do by going out for groceries. Yet still I'm in denial. With zero plans on changing anything.
Maybe I shouldn't be here, I'm not sure I belong. I mean, it was't that bad.
Hell thanks to my stupid parents I can't even breath right. My life was destroyed the day I was born. Thanks to them I got kicked out of school. I can't get a job. I'm not stable enough to live alone. I'm horrible at relationships. And that's barely the beginning.
I never wanted much. A loving family. A nice little home. The most I wanted out of life was my own business. But it's all gone. It's not like my life was "that bad"
How can I keep saying that? I've had people tell me to stop, if the mental state I'm currently in doesn't say enough. You don't exactly get mental disorders as bad as I do by going out for groceries. Yet still I'm in denial. With zero plans on changing anything.
Maybe I shouldn't be here, I'm not sure I belong. I mean, it was't that bad.