Propranolol

[efffervescence]

Hi, so I managed to get beta blockers again by going through another doctor but I don't have anywhere near as much as I did when I managed to kill myself last time I took them. I think I took around 50 40mg tablets and that was enough to have me go into cardiac arrest and die, but unfortunately I was already in an ambulance by the time I died thanks to my mum coming home because she forgot her keys.

Is there anything I could take along with the propranolol to aid it as I won't have as much as I did last time? I'm also thinking I might not need as much as my heart is still fucked from last time. I'm female, 19, around 105lbs and 5'4.

 

[15dec]

Please don't attempt to ctb through an OD alone, it's going to be painful, long, and you're much more likely to be found and end up in hospital and a psych ward rather than dead.

Drugs and an exit bag increase chances of death but from what I've heard it's still not a reliable method.

If you don't want to try a more 'violent' method such as hanging, jumping etc you can try and get N (from A, I wouldn't trust any sites on surface or deep web), SN or butanediol as they're much more reliable and peaceful than other drugs.

 

[iHeartRockArt]

Hi, so I managed to get beta blockers again by going through another doctor but I don't have anywhere near as much as I did when I managed to kill myself last time I took them. I think I took around 50 40mg tablets and that was enough to have me go into cardiac arrest and die, but unfortunately I was already in an ambulance by the time I died thanks to my mum coming home because she forgot her keys.

Is there anything I could take along with the propranolol to aid it as I won't have as much as I did last time? I'm also thinking I might not need as much as my heart is still fucked from last time. I'm female, 19, around 105lbs and 5'4.

Just my opinion, but I think this is a very ineffective method to use. I know someone personally who took the same BP medication to try CTB and did not go well at all. Do some more research and weigh your options before you commit to doing something like this. This actually concerns me that it could possibly cause something horrible, long term effects, and just make you end up paralyzed as a vegetable on life support, brain damage, and that would make things so much worse. Please think about this. And if this happens to be someone else's medication...please don't do that. Be careful.

 

[efffervescence]

Please don't attempt to ctb through an OD alone, it's going to be painful, long, and you're much more likely to be found and end up in hospital and a psych ward rather than dead.

Drugs and an exit bag increase chances of death but from what I've heard it's still not a reliable method.

If you don't want to try a more 'violent' method such as hanging, jumping etc you can try and get N (from A, I wouldn't trust any sites on surface or deep web), SN or butanediol as they're much more reliable and peaceful than other drugs.

I've already ordered SN, I just don't want to wait for it to come. I can only afford to buy N once which means if it got stopped in customs I would be broke and alive. There's a bridge nearby that I could jump from, I know 2 people that have jumped from there and died. I'm scared of jumping on the off chance that I don't die on impact and end up drowning with broken legs or something but I guess it doesn't really matter because it ends in death either way. I wish euthanasia was legal, people are going to kill themselves whether it's legal or not, just legalising it makes it possible to exit painlessly. I want to die cosy in my bed, not jumping off of the bridge, that's terrifying and I'd feel bad for my relatives if my corpse washed away to sea or I landed on something and they had to identify me torn up and broken. Maybe N would be worth the risk or saving for, or maybe I could just fly 1 way to Mexico. I'll probably just wait for SN to come, it sounds pretty peaceful

 

[15dec]

I've already ordered SN, I just don't want to wait for it to come. I can only afford to buy N once which means if it got stopped in customs I would be broke and alive. There's a bridge nearby that I could jump from, I know 2 people that have jumped from there and died. I'm scared of jumping on the off chance that I don't die on impact and end up drowning with broken legs or something but I guess it doesn't really matter because it ends in death either way. I wish euthanasia was legal, people are going to kill themselves whether it's legal or not, just legalising it makes it possible to exit painlessly. I want to die cosy in my bed, not jumping off of the bridge, that's terrifying and I'd feel bad for my relatives if my corpse washed away to sea or I landed on something and they had to identify me torn up and broken. Maybe N would be worth the risk or saving for, or maybe I could just fly 1 way to Mexico. I'll probably just wait for SN to come, it sounds pretty peaceful

Yeah, waiting for SN is the safest idea imo. I have to wait a week for mine so hopefully you won't have to wait too long either

 

[efffervescence]

Yeah, waiting for SN is the safest idea imo. I have to wait a week for mine so hopefully you won't have to wait too long either

Are you planning on CTB when it comes too?

 

[15dec]

Are you planning on CTB when it comes too?

Planning on ctb by end/mid February the latest. I can't get anti-emetics or acid reducers atm but should have them by the end of January hopefully, I'll probably wait until I've got them before I attempt

 

[angie]

Yeah, waiting for SN is the safest idea imo. I have to wait a week for mine so hopefully you won't have to wait too long either

hi my worry is how will you know that the sn you get is genuinely what it says it is ?

 

[15dec]

hi my worry is how will you know that the sn you get is genuinely what it says it is ?

I believe there are tests you can do but I'm not sure what exactly. I think chances of getting anything dodgy are relatively slim though as SN is perfectly legal and I cant imagine there being anyone scamming people looking for it. I got mine on eBay for less than £10 so it's really quite easy to obtain and very affordable, even if what you get isn't the real deal

 

[JohnDoe1]

You can use chloroquine or digoxin with propranolol...but, you would need benzos for a peaceful death

 

[itsallover]

I think oxycodone is the best way to go. It'll give you a high like a heroine and then you'll just drift off. Go to a pain management doctor and complain of severe back pain.