I thought I would add my experiences with propranolol to the ongoing discourse here. I would like to add that even though I have failed attempts I actually do still consider this the best method (for me) because it was so very nearly successful once.
I accidentally took a propranolol overdose back in 2012 and went into cardiac arrest. When I was prescribed it from the doctor they didn't explain what the medication actually did and told me to take it when I felt anxious. Which was a lot. I knew something was wrong but my mental health problems weren't going away. My memory is gone for like 2-4 days surrounding the event. I just know I had a cardiac arrest, was resuscitated and very 'lucky' (they said) that I was found. I was in a medically induced coma for a few days and managed to walk away with no issues. No brain damage, no heart issues. Nothing.
In 2017 I tried to replicate this by taking a slow and sustained OD of propranolol I got off the internet. I also added in some benzos I was prescribed at the time, and some anti-psychotics to keep me sleeping and low energy. I was almost successful but SI kicked in, I had a very vivid dream where I felt like I astral projected and saw all these little robots who told me my time on earth was done. I asked to go back and said I wasn't finished. I came back and my heart rate was only 27bpm. I couldn't move or speak properly but managed to alert my flat mates and they called the ambulance. I again walked away less than 24 hours later with no issues.
More recently I tried to replicate these again, but didn't add in the benzos. I should have. Instead of the peaceful and calm experiences of before my body kept seizing and convulsing. I didn't lose consciousness at all, but I couldn't control my legs and kept falling and spasming. It was a nightmare. I called the paramedics myself when I was at a point of slurring my speech and struggling to walk because I felt like it was a failed attempt. I probably could have kept going but I didn't.
I do regret that choice. I don't have enough propranolol now to take an OD with unless I crush up my slow release pills for faster absorption but I don't have any anti-emetics. So I will probably just vomit it up anyway.
Anyway, I just thought I would toss my info into the ring. So to speak. I do think it's a good way to go if you have enough and supplement it with benzos to stop the spasms.
I accidentally took a propranolol overdose back in 2012 and went into cardiac arrest. When I was prescribed it from the doctor they didn't explain what the medication actually did and told me to take it when I felt anxious. Which was a lot. I knew something was wrong but my mental health problems weren't going away. My memory is gone for like 2-4 days surrounding the event. I just know I had a cardiac arrest, was resuscitated and very 'lucky' (they said) that I was found. I was in a medically induced coma for a few days and managed to walk away with no issues. No brain damage, no heart issues. Nothing.
In 2017 I tried to replicate this by taking a slow and sustained OD of propranolol I got off the internet. I also added in some benzos I was prescribed at the time, and some anti-psychotics to keep me sleeping and low energy. I was almost successful but SI kicked in, I had a very vivid dream where I felt like I astral projected and saw all these little robots who told me my time on earth was done. I asked to go back and said I wasn't finished. I came back and my heart rate was only 27bpm. I couldn't move or speak properly but managed to alert my flat mates and they called the ambulance. I again walked away less than 24 hours later with no issues.
More recently I tried to replicate these again, but didn't add in the benzos. I should have. Instead of the peaceful and calm experiences of before my body kept seizing and convulsing. I didn't lose consciousness at all, but I couldn't control my legs and kept falling and spasming. It was a nightmare. I called the paramedics myself when I was at a point of slurring my speech and struggling to walk because I felt like it was a failed attempt. I probably could have kept going but I didn't.
I do regret that choice. I don't have enough propranolol now to take an OD with unless I crush up my slow release pills for faster absorption but I don't have any anti-emetics. So I will probably just vomit it up anyway.
Anyway, I just thought I would toss my info into the ring. So to speak. I do think it's a good way to go if you have enough and supplement it with benzos to stop the spasms.
It can't have been too high!?
