Problems with motivation

[cattybag]

I've been living with my ex for a few years (we broke up a year after moving in together) we only have a friendship now so they'll probably end up leaving once the lease is up. They've been gone for about a week on some vacation and being all alone makes this feeling more intense. I dont have any friends anymore since the rest moved but I have gotten a new job recently which is nice, it's just a lot of work.

But I get this feeling of being so disconnected on my days off. I struggle with structure and I have a decent amount of days off and yet I still waste them. Creating a new relationship is very difficult because I'm still sore from all the past rejections and the amount of time and energy that is required to maintain them. When I dont have any community or interest I struggle with keeping my motivation to keep going. I just enjoy people so much that when I'm all alone and struggling I find it difficult to keep myself here. It's not that I hate myself, i just dont see the motivation of sticking around when I'm so disconnected from everything.

In the past I relied on my relationship with my ex roomate to sorta be something but it's basically scraps especially with the emotional problems he has too. How do you guys keep motivation to work on skills or to create a relationship? I'm always a people pleaser so when I have no people I feel like im in a void with no purpose or motivation. I do have interests but my adhd makes me uninterested too quickly so I cant ever really work on anything. Im just so sick and tired of being alone and that makes me wanna get out of this body.

 

[InevitableDeath]

I've been living with my ex for a few years (we broke up a year after moving in together) we only have a friendship now so they'll probably end up leaving once the lease is up. They've been gone for about a week on some vacation and being all alone makes this feeling more intense. I dont have any friends anymore since the rest moved but I have gotten a new job recently which is nice, it's just a lot of work.

But I get this feeling of being so disconnected on my days off. I struggle with structure and I have a decent amount of days off and yet I still waste them. Creating a new relationship is very difficult because I'm still sore from all the past rejections and the amount of time and energy that is required to maintain them. When I dont have any community or interest I struggle with keeping my motivation to keep going. I just enjoy people so much that when I'm all alone and struggling I find it difficult to keep myself here. It's not that I hate myself, i just dont see the motivation of sticking around when I'm so disconnected from everything.

In the past I relied on my relationship with my ex roomate to sorta be something but it's basically scraps especially with the emotional problems he has too. How do you guys keep motivation to work on skills or to create a relationship? I'm always a people pleaser so when I have no people I feel like im in a void with no purpose or motivation. I do have interests but my adhd makes me uninterested too quickly so I cant ever really work on anything. Im just so sick and tired of being alone and that makes me wanna get out of this body.

not to be rude, but are you seriously on a suicide site asking people about motivation to work on skills or create relationships?!

Try the recovery section, or better still, somewhere else. Or you're just gonna get answers like this - people are cunts, society is a con, everyone will betray you, life is pain.