Kinda what the title says.
I have bipolar disorder, and it sucks ass because I know I'd be better off dead, but sometimes the upswings make it hard to remember that. I think I'm finally going through with buying a gun tomorrow so when I'm ready again I can use it without the barriers of background checks and picking it up and all that.
I don't plan on shooting myself tomorrow, but I think it'll bring relief that I finally have an exit for after the holidays are well and truly over.
I've already cried over the decision today, so now I just feel kinda numb about it.
I don't really know why I'm sharing this. I guess I can't tell anyone else and I just want it off my chest.
I have bipolar disorder, and it sucks ass because I know I'd be better off dead, but sometimes the upswings make it hard to remember that. I think I'm finally going through with buying a gun tomorrow so when I'm ready again I can use it without the barriers of background checks and picking it up and all that.
I don't plan on shooting myself tomorrow, but I think it'll bring relief that I finally have an exit for after the holidays are well and truly over.
I've already cried over the decision today, so now I just feel kinda numb about it.
I don't really know why I'm sharing this. I guess I can't tell anyone else and I just want it off my chest.
