Pretty sure my SaSu friend committed CTB

[existentiallinguine]

I've been looking for a partner for months, out of all the people that got in touch with me, I really only clicked with one. All the other replies ranged from a genuinely scary lack of preparation, to flirtation, to unserious, to unintelligible. We planned for weeks, had similar reasons and traumas. Regardless of where it was going, I was happy to consider this person kind and my friend. One day they messaged me explaining that it had just become too much, that their time was up, and the past weighed too heavy on them indicating they decided to go through with things before our planned date. I sent them messages in the hopes that they might reply, but I haven't heard back nor seen them post here since. I guess this post is part of my grieving and processing of that event, as well as a little memorial. I've tried to find anything about them so that I could pay my respects in a more concrete way irl, but I can't find anything online, so this is all I can give. I'm not going to share their user, because I want to respect their privacy, especially in case they're hospitalized. Because after this this forum hasn't really been the same for me (doubled by so many weird and disrespectful replies to my partners post, honestly) I can't really see myself using it much more. Part of me really hopes that they're still alive and might come online once again some day and see my post here. Sometimes all you need is to know someone is thinking of you. If you are out there somewhere, and you do come across this one day just know that you are loved, and I am happy you survived.

 

[SoLowHollow48]

I've been looking for a partner for months, out of all the people that got in touch with me, I really only clicked with one. All the other replies ranged from a genuinely scary lack of preparation, to flirtation, to unserious, to unintelligible. We planned for weeks, had similar reasons and traumas. Regardless of where it was going, I was happy to consider this person kind and my friend. One day they messaged me explaining that it had just become too much, that their time was up, and the past weighed too heavy on them indicating they decided to go through with things before our planned date. I sent them messages in the hopes that they might reply, but I haven't heard back nor seen them post here since. I guess this post is part of my grieving and processing of that event, as well as a little memorial. I've tried to find anything about them so that I could pay my respects in a more concrete way irl, but I can't find anything online, so this is all I can give. I'm not going to share their user, because I want to respect their privacy, especially in case they're hospitalized. Because after this this forum hasn't really been the same for me (doubled by so many weird and disrespectful replies to my partners post, honestly) I can't really see myself using it much more. Part of me really hopes that they're still alive and might come online once again some day and see my post here. Sometimes all you need is to know someone is thinking of you. If you are out there somewhere, and you do come across this one day just know that you are loved, and I am happy you survived.

If it helps, some users' profile cannot be viewed at all past their profile picture and username so if you want to ask the people of SaSu to try and figure out what happened to your friend, the possiblity of us knowing who would be small.

Anyways, I hope that they're just sick of the crazy shit on this site and is breathing some good air in the mountains right now or just taking a long break before going back.

But if you're really sure that they're gone, then I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope they get to find the peace that they're looking for. In their own terms.