Venting Preparing to kill myself

[UninformedLover]

I started the preparations to finally ctb. I have a lot I have to do but if I lock in (I will) I can be done by earliest February. Don't wanna drag this out to no later than March.

Was supposed to be doing all this stuff back in August but well...things happen I guess.

But now I just feel nothing but sadness. I lowkey don't even want to do it but I have no other options. So oh well I guess. It just sucks so much. It feels like I was put on this earth just to suffer for no reason.

 

[shcizoseraphima]

im in the same boat, i also dont really want to do it but have no choice.... it is a painful realisation, i know how you feel. please know you are not alone in this