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samsara_96
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- Sep 27, 2022
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Welcome back, for the last time everybody! I am preparing to use the SN method on 22th of August. This site has been down in Turkey for the recent months and now it is back online. So, I wanted to come back. Now, the last time I thought that it would be wise to delete this account completely before I go but, I feel completely unheard and I do not want to leave any letters behind other than simply wishes. The people who refused to listen to me when I was alive do not deserve to read my thoughts after I am gone. They are not deserving of it but I still want to leave behind a trace of my existence even if it is online. Hence, I started writing a very long letter that I will share here. The first part is quite philosophical. The reason behind that is that I came to realize I would actually stay alive if I had felt free most of my life, but I lived a life of a slave just like so many of you. My terrible existence has been spent in a toxic family, terrible schools and terrible work places. Feel free to ignore this letter if you despise reading posts like this. And, one last thing, I feel like I am a completely different person now since I last visited here. Now, I am more calm as I was terribly anxious back then. My soul is now in tranquility and my body will also reach that state in two weeks and my mind will hopefully be destroyed. The reason why I call my last letter premonition will become clear in later parts.
Be warned that the logic flaw of my letter can be weak as I always struggled with that even in school.
"I have never thought, for my part, that man's freedom consists in his being able to do whatever he wills, but that he should not, by any human power, be forced to do what is against his will."
Jean-Jacques Rousseau
Welcome to the lengthy letter that I want to leave behind as a trace of my existence. My time has truly come now. In two week's time, my existence will be reduced to its material dimension by turning into a cold corpse. This year has been the year of revelations for me. My whole life has been shown before my eyes as if I was given a life review. There have been so many times that I have been wronged, but, more painfully, so many more moments that I have wronged others. I begged the Gods and the Creator to excuse me for my mistakes and end my pain and now their response is clear to me: I need to do it myself.
You might wonder why I have not done it previously when I claimed that I was going to do it. The first reason is because my sister had changed her travel plans back then, but now she is certainly going on a trip to Cyprus on 16th of August. I must take this chance of freeing my soul from its cage which we call the body. Honestly speaking, there are so many books and documentaries that I would love to have finished before I start my next journey. But I decided to let go of my desire to attain earthly wisdom –and, moreover, that decision is the main reason why 2024 was my year of revelations. Never would I have guessed that sinless self-image of mine was a sham hiding my petty attachment to this world, the intellect. Luckily, it is clear to me now that the human intellect is the biggest culprit behind this consumerist hell that we are forced to exist in. It is hard to look at a scientist, a doctor, or an engineer and accuse them of corrupting the world unless the individual has indulged in a crime but that is the biggest mistake we are making today. The schools and universities are the ones that have poisoned the human existence to this degree. As a matter of fact, no other system that came before this tortured its subjects to this degree. Ever since we switched to knowledge economies, a war has been declared on the nature itself. Hundreds of millions killed, waters poisoned, forests gone, billions entrapped in a rat race, kids being entrapped in schools, humans at each other's throats, any feeling of belonging to a community destroyed, human existence being reduced to its atoms…
I still have this wonderful dream in me where everyone, including nature, can attain peace of mind but to reach that state, we must first give back everyone their natural freedom. Freedom here is not used in a materialistic way which is usually pushed down our throats through education and media but in a non-materialistic way. The freedom of the soul is what truly matters. And I believe that Rousseau's quote above perfectly sums up the freedom of the soul.
The freedom of the body is doing whatever we want. Moreover, since the body is the lowest dimension of our existence and can be thought to be similar to Freud's concept of id, it is the driving force behind consumerism. When, you think of freedom in terms of the body, the dog-eat-dog economy gets justified. Since, we have finite resources and freedom is doing what you want, only a few select individuals should have freedom, they often exclaim. And then, they go on to claim that since the intellect is what makes humans "superior" to other beings, the smart ones are the most valuable beings and only they are worthy of freedom. Yet, these Darwinist fools, who cannot even explain why uselessness exist, mistakes categories for ordinal data. Because they are different than some other form of existence, they start to believe that there must be a comparison between them which indulges them in a feeling of envy, trying to outdo every other existence as if there is a competition of being. However, what they keep failing to see is you can only have a comparison if there is an end picture in your mind. If the whole purpose of existence is multiplying our material wealth, sure they can claim to be superior to lazy people, artists, athletes, animals, trees and so on… But, if that is not the end goal, how is it possible to claim superiority over others due to your intellect? Let's say the purpose of existence is purifying our souls as claimed by many religions, would not this make all the technocrats the most inferior considering how they treat and belittle others? Or what if the whole purpose of existence is just to exist without any deeper meaning, would not this make the lazy the most superior and those ant-like studious people the guiltiest?
The reality is that we do not know how our existence will end, and we will never know it. We do not even know the mechanisms behind our existence. Maybe the ancient religions were right and multiple Gods are governing our existence through skies, or Abrahamic religions could be right and there is a God sending everybody to Hell or Heaven, or Eastern Religions could be right about reincarnation processes. Yet, the only people who can answer this question are already dead. Furthermore, the only way to know for sure is by joining them. And the impending last scene of human existence differs greatly according to each and every one of belief systems. So, how can economists claim so boldly that the only faith of human existence is being a productive being multiplying the wealth of humans every day? Do they have a type of wisdom that has not been revealed to anyone else? It is even funnier when you think about how their economic system has failed at least 4 times in the last 30 years. How is it that we must hate every belief system with every atom in our body except the materialistic one when their system has been the most corrupting, most painful and most fragile? Even the Earth itself cannot support their childish version of freedom and happiness and now they are dragging down the whole world into a Nuclear Armageddon because of that. It is sad that I have spent 25 years of my life as a proud member of science-worshippers. If only I had known how foolish we were, maybe I would not be where I am today.
Moving on to the freedom of the mind… Now, the mind is often the hardest to entrap but unfortunately, we live in times when this is a reality. The thoughts of everyone are being shaped through schools and media. The intellectual and media empire of the Anglo-Saxons is the main reason why nobody can speak loudly against the technocrats. If anyone dares mentioning the points that I raised above, academy and media will reduce you to a crazy conspiracy theorist. Dismissing your worries as paranoia. However, the freedom of the mind is necessary to set the soul free. As the soul can only move as far as the mind can imagine. However, it is not sufficient as the mind is alive by itself. Everything else is an illusion. It is a prison entrapping a person through their own free will where the body and the soul have no choice but to comply. The isolation of the body might be bearable for some, and it might even be considered desirable in some cases. Regardless, the most painful is the mind forcing the soul to live in a relative isolation from other souls. Through this the mind becomes the most efficient place to kill the humanity for it is the place where the laments of the body and soul had been buried, silenced for the sake of the mind. That is why, the mind can even become more dangerous than the body. The body can be foolish, yet the mind can be devilish, stripping us from our compassion and pity and turning us into sin machines. The mind also helped the technocrats to make up excuses that I listed above. Because these people are so deeply lost in their mind that they live in a relative isolation from others. Their soul cannot even identify other souls. Furthermore, the whole Western thought is build on this. Descartes perfectly illustrates a person swimming deeply in the egotistical ocean of the mind, perplexed about the existence of other minds.
The soul is different from body and the mind. The soul is not interested in wealth any more than the body which entrapped it needs because the soul can travel to places so much better than this ugly Earth. Thus, the soul does not need a hierarchy of existence through which millions will lose their dignity and turn into means to help technocrats reach their end. The soul is also not cruel like the mind because the soul can interact with other souls. The soul has compassion which means that it is undesirable for it to reduce other to means to reach its own end. The soul can only be happy when everybody else it interacts with is an end in themselves. Otherwise, the soul will fall sick failing to reach places that it would otherwise. The soul knows that it cannot be happy by itself, and happiness is only attainable when nobody has a fear of being left behind. This is why the freedom of the soul is necessary to attain my dream of peace.
The biggest problem is nobody even recognizes souls anymore. We have killed our souls when we tried to kill God to build our knowledge economies in which a promise for infinite growth was made. A form of God remained, and it is being worshiped by a handful of remaining religious people, but those Gods are not any better than the worldview of scientific atheists. Because God has also lost its soul. God is now as heartless as the technocrats that rule over us. It is not capable of forgiveness or unconditional love. It only punishes others for not conforming to the rules of society. Hence, foolish humans turned God into a monster while they were trying to kill it for their selfish desires. We are left with two choices now: follow the stone-hearted God and believe in a two-dimensional existence (body and the mind) or reduce your whole existence to a single dimension.
I will continue this tomorrow and in the part 2, I want to talk more about my life. I will try to keep the details as minimal as possible because I do not want people that I know find this account but I want to be honest with you because people here are one of the few remaining ones who will understand where I am coming from.
P.S. Please kindly inform me if I need to post this somewhere else.
Be warned that the logic flaw of my letter can be weak as I always struggled with that even in school.
"I have never thought, for my part, that man's freedom consists in his being able to do whatever he wills, but that he should not, by any human power, be forced to do what is against his will."
Jean-Jacques Rousseau
Welcome to the lengthy letter that I want to leave behind as a trace of my existence. My time has truly come now. In two week's time, my existence will be reduced to its material dimension by turning into a cold corpse. This year has been the year of revelations for me. My whole life has been shown before my eyes as if I was given a life review. There have been so many times that I have been wronged, but, more painfully, so many more moments that I have wronged others. I begged the Gods and the Creator to excuse me for my mistakes and end my pain and now their response is clear to me: I need to do it myself.
You might wonder why I have not done it previously when I claimed that I was going to do it. The first reason is because my sister had changed her travel plans back then, but now she is certainly going on a trip to Cyprus on 16th of August. I must take this chance of freeing my soul from its cage which we call the body. Honestly speaking, there are so many books and documentaries that I would love to have finished before I start my next journey. But I decided to let go of my desire to attain earthly wisdom –and, moreover, that decision is the main reason why 2024 was my year of revelations. Never would I have guessed that sinless self-image of mine was a sham hiding my petty attachment to this world, the intellect. Luckily, it is clear to me now that the human intellect is the biggest culprit behind this consumerist hell that we are forced to exist in. It is hard to look at a scientist, a doctor, or an engineer and accuse them of corrupting the world unless the individual has indulged in a crime but that is the biggest mistake we are making today. The schools and universities are the ones that have poisoned the human existence to this degree. As a matter of fact, no other system that came before this tortured its subjects to this degree. Ever since we switched to knowledge economies, a war has been declared on the nature itself. Hundreds of millions killed, waters poisoned, forests gone, billions entrapped in a rat race, kids being entrapped in schools, humans at each other's throats, any feeling of belonging to a community destroyed, human existence being reduced to its atoms…
I still have this wonderful dream in me where everyone, including nature, can attain peace of mind but to reach that state, we must first give back everyone their natural freedom. Freedom here is not used in a materialistic way which is usually pushed down our throats through education and media but in a non-materialistic way. The freedom of the soul is what truly matters. And I believe that Rousseau's quote above perfectly sums up the freedom of the soul.
The freedom of the body is doing whatever we want. Moreover, since the body is the lowest dimension of our existence and can be thought to be similar to Freud's concept of id, it is the driving force behind consumerism. When, you think of freedom in terms of the body, the dog-eat-dog economy gets justified. Since, we have finite resources and freedom is doing what you want, only a few select individuals should have freedom, they often exclaim. And then, they go on to claim that since the intellect is what makes humans "superior" to other beings, the smart ones are the most valuable beings and only they are worthy of freedom. Yet, these Darwinist fools, who cannot even explain why uselessness exist, mistakes categories for ordinal data. Because they are different than some other form of existence, they start to believe that there must be a comparison between them which indulges them in a feeling of envy, trying to outdo every other existence as if there is a competition of being. However, what they keep failing to see is you can only have a comparison if there is an end picture in your mind. If the whole purpose of existence is multiplying our material wealth, sure they can claim to be superior to lazy people, artists, athletes, animals, trees and so on… But, if that is not the end goal, how is it possible to claim superiority over others due to your intellect? Let's say the purpose of existence is purifying our souls as claimed by many religions, would not this make all the technocrats the most inferior considering how they treat and belittle others? Or what if the whole purpose of existence is just to exist without any deeper meaning, would not this make the lazy the most superior and those ant-like studious people the guiltiest?
The reality is that we do not know how our existence will end, and we will never know it. We do not even know the mechanisms behind our existence. Maybe the ancient religions were right and multiple Gods are governing our existence through skies, or Abrahamic religions could be right and there is a God sending everybody to Hell or Heaven, or Eastern Religions could be right about reincarnation processes. Yet, the only people who can answer this question are already dead. Furthermore, the only way to know for sure is by joining them. And the impending last scene of human existence differs greatly according to each and every one of belief systems. So, how can economists claim so boldly that the only faith of human existence is being a productive being multiplying the wealth of humans every day? Do they have a type of wisdom that has not been revealed to anyone else? It is even funnier when you think about how their economic system has failed at least 4 times in the last 30 years. How is it that we must hate every belief system with every atom in our body except the materialistic one when their system has been the most corrupting, most painful and most fragile? Even the Earth itself cannot support their childish version of freedom and happiness and now they are dragging down the whole world into a Nuclear Armageddon because of that. It is sad that I have spent 25 years of my life as a proud member of science-worshippers. If only I had known how foolish we were, maybe I would not be where I am today.
Moving on to the freedom of the mind… Now, the mind is often the hardest to entrap but unfortunately, we live in times when this is a reality. The thoughts of everyone are being shaped through schools and media. The intellectual and media empire of the Anglo-Saxons is the main reason why nobody can speak loudly against the technocrats. If anyone dares mentioning the points that I raised above, academy and media will reduce you to a crazy conspiracy theorist. Dismissing your worries as paranoia. However, the freedom of the mind is necessary to set the soul free. As the soul can only move as far as the mind can imagine. However, it is not sufficient as the mind is alive by itself. Everything else is an illusion. It is a prison entrapping a person through their own free will where the body and the soul have no choice but to comply. The isolation of the body might be bearable for some, and it might even be considered desirable in some cases. Regardless, the most painful is the mind forcing the soul to live in a relative isolation from other souls. Through this the mind becomes the most efficient place to kill the humanity for it is the place where the laments of the body and soul had been buried, silenced for the sake of the mind. That is why, the mind can even become more dangerous than the body. The body can be foolish, yet the mind can be devilish, stripping us from our compassion and pity and turning us into sin machines. The mind also helped the technocrats to make up excuses that I listed above. Because these people are so deeply lost in their mind that they live in a relative isolation from others. Their soul cannot even identify other souls. Furthermore, the whole Western thought is build on this. Descartes perfectly illustrates a person swimming deeply in the egotistical ocean of the mind, perplexed about the existence of other minds.
The soul is different from body and the mind. The soul is not interested in wealth any more than the body which entrapped it needs because the soul can travel to places so much better than this ugly Earth. Thus, the soul does not need a hierarchy of existence through which millions will lose their dignity and turn into means to help technocrats reach their end. The soul is also not cruel like the mind because the soul can interact with other souls. The soul has compassion which means that it is undesirable for it to reduce other to means to reach its own end. The soul can only be happy when everybody else it interacts with is an end in themselves. Otherwise, the soul will fall sick failing to reach places that it would otherwise. The soul knows that it cannot be happy by itself, and happiness is only attainable when nobody has a fear of being left behind. This is why the freedom of the soul is necessary to attain my dream of peace.
The biggest problem is nobody even recognizes souls anymore. We have killed our souls when we tried to kill God to build our knowledge economies in which a promise for infinite growth was made. A form of God remained, and it is being worshiped by a handful of remaining religious people, but those Gods are not any better than the worldview of scientific atheists. Because God has also lost its soul. God is now as heartless as the technocrats that rule over us. It is not capable of forgiveness or unconditional love. It only punishes others for not conforming to the rules of society. Hence, foolish humans turned God into a monster while they were trying to kill it for their selfish desires. We are left with two choices now: follow the stone-hearted God and believe in a two-dimensional existence (body and the mind) or reduce your whole existence to a single dimension.
I will continue this tomorrow and in the part 2, I want to talk more about my life. I will try to keep the details as minimal as possible because I do not want people that I know find this account but I want to be honest with you because people here are one of the few remaining ones who will understand where I am coming from.
P.S. Please kindly inform me if I need to post this somewhere else.
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