nzdarkshark
The Loved Mistake
- Sep 4, 2018
- 400
I've been asking for a lot of help/advice lately - I apologise.
I'm just sick of this earth and my life and I just want it to be over.
I was originally going to do partial suspension as my method - but after practising today I worry it may not be the best method.
However it's the only method I can think of that I can do - all others require things I don't have and cannot get.
I'm 18 and still living with my parents - who are aware I have attempted to ctb before. This means I cannot receive packages, as they would be suspisious of what it was.
I also cannot drive, the nearest bridge that could do anything is 5 hours walk from here - and I live in rural NZ (so no large buildings in this town).
I feel like I have no options, which makes me feel even more pathetic, stupid and worthless. Any help is appreciated as always.
I'm just sick of this earth and my life and I just want it to be over.
I was originally going to do partial suspension as my method - but after practising today I worry it may not be the best method.
However it's the only method I can think of that I can do - all others require things I don't have and cannot get.
I'm 18 and still living with my parents - who are aware I have attempted to ctb before. This means I cannot receive packages, as they would be suspisious of what it was.
I also cannot drive, the nearest bridge that could do anything is 5 hours walk from here - and I live in rural NZ (so no large buildings in this town).
I feel like I have no options, which makes me feel even more pathetic, stupid and worthless. Any help is appreciated as always.
