clearing eyes
femboy hooters employee of the month
- Jul 23, 2019
- 44
i'm so sick of keeping this facade up for the sole purpose of everyone else's comfort. they don't deserve my passivity, they don't deserve my obedience. they don't love me, they love having something to control and keep them company. i'm not worth anything, and they know that. but pretending as if they care about me satisfies their ego. i'm just a pathetic charity case that people pity and try to fix. i have nothing to offer, nothing to give. i'm not a child anymore so those old men who wanted an easy target no matter how unappealing are no longer interested. now all that's left are those who use me as trauma porn, or those who have low confidence and use me to feel better about themselves. since i made myself unattractive on purpose i can't even be used for sex, really. or maybe that's what my current partner is doing because he doesn't think he can do better. maybe i'm a combination of all three for him. i'm the worst of the worst, scum of the earth. i never hurt anyone but that doesn't matter, because hurting people is almost required in this shithole world. i want to be left to rot, but the masochists are confused as to why i want to leave and the sadists want me to stick around so they can get their rocks off. just gut me until there's nothing left, then. i'm not trying anymore.