Possible of going on tonight with SN

[milorddd]

Hi, I would probably do it tonight.. It's very sudden but i am now at my lowest point. I don't think I can hold it any longer. I have my SN but I couldn't wait for my anti emetics and acid reducer to come. I would probably just drink it and just held everything in. Not sure if its possible or not.

I'm doing it 3 hours from now

 

[woxihuanni]

Id' say that both going without AE and doing it in turmoil are two very bad ideas. I'm sorry for what pushed you over right now.

 

[milorddd]

I know, but i don't think i can held it any longer. Everything just fall apart today. Might be the lowest point of my life now.

 

[Roger]

It is impossible to "hold everything in" when vomiting violently. Trying to do say may well mean choking to death.

I know, but i don't think i can held it any longer. Everything just fall apart today. Might be the lowest point of my life now.

I am very sorry, really. Know the feeling.

 

[milorddd]

It is impossible to "hold everything in" when vomiting violently. Trying to do say may well mean choking to death.

I meant trying to not vomit. I haven't actually ate since 5 hours ago. So 3 hours from now might make it okay.

 

[Roger]

I meant trying to not vomit. I haven't actually ate since 5 hours ago. So 3 hours from now might make it okay.

OK. But if you puke, you puke. You can't stop it.

 

[milorddd]

If I puke, should I call for help or just I can take another dose?
I just realized that waiting 3 hours is very long, never felt this long

 

[milorddd]

2 more hours counting down

 

[N3UR0T1C]

I hope you get the peace you want.

 

[BPD_LE]

❤

 

[milorddd]

thank you guys, just looking everything back now

 

[LonelyLight]

Sending peace and to you

 

[Return2Dust]

 

[Dishonorable]

I wish you a safe and peaceful journey.

 

[Rachel74]

Don't do it on impulse please.
Don't

Don't do it on impulse please.

 

[milorddd]

damn it why am I hesitating now, that it draw closer :(

 

[Return2Dust]

damn it why am I hesitating now, that it draw closer :(

SI kicking in.

 

[milorddd]

Don't do it on impulse please.
Don't

I'm very perplex right now, I really don't know what to do. On one side I really want to end this right now, but now I feel in the middle. going back and forth. I don't even know what to say. I'm such a mess

 

[k75]

I know this is ultimately your decision, and it's not my place to tell you what to do, but I really think you should reconsider. You're very upset, and I think that's the worst time to make decisions like this.

You're skipping some very important steps and setting yourself up for failure right off the bat. I've seen a lot of people on here do the same thing and end up failing and hospitalized.

I think you need to take a break and calm down first. Wait for all your supplies, and don't rush. You seem hesitant and a bit unsure, too. Take the time to make sure this is really the right time for you.

I know it feels awful, but you aren't missing your chance by not doing it right now. You're just being smarter and making sure everything is in order. It's worth it.

 

[milorddd]

SI kicking in.

I know and feel so embarrassed right now, i was so sure. I even have the drink right in front of me. but i'm hesistating a lot right now.

 

[k75]

I know and feel so embarrassed right now, i was so sure. I even have the drink right in front of me. but i'm hesistating a lot right now.

There's nothing to feel embarrassed about. Just because you made it doesn't mean you must drink it. You don't have to do anything you don't feel ready to do. Nobody is going to think less of you, whatever you choose.

 

[wanttodie]

good luck

 

[milorddd]

I know this is ultimately your decision, and it's not my place to tell you what to do, but I really think you should reconsider. You're very upset, and I think that's the worst time to make decisions like this.

You're skipping some very important steps and setting yourself up for failure right off the bat. I've seen a lot of people on here do the same thing and end up failing and hospitalized.

I think you need to take a break and calm down first. Wait for all your supplies, and don't rush. You seem hesitant and a bit unsure, too. Take the time to make sure this is really the right time for you.

I know it feels awful, but you aren't missing your chance by not doing it right now. You're just being smarter and making sure everything is in order. It's worth it.

I am very upset right now, at myself and everything. Now it gives me headaches that I don't need right now. Everything just falls apart. I don't think I can survive another day, this is why I chose to end it right now. But somehow when I thought back, my brain gives me the idea to stop what i'm doing.

There's nothing to feel embarrassed about. Just because you made it doesn't mean you must drink it. You don't have to do anything you don't feel ready to do. Nobody is going to think less of you, whatever you choose.

I really thank you for your text, I really need to have a think about this first for a few moment, whether I can see this through now or not. as you said I should calm down first.

 

[okaoki]

 

[Jean4]

I am not trying to stop you. Can I ask what happened to bring you to this point? You said you are at your lowest. Maybe talking it out will help?

 

[woxihuanni]

Yes you can tell us what got fucked without being told to just go for a walk or whatever crap.

 

[Return2Dust]

When things are a mess, I leave them alone for a bit. It seems to help the situation calm down.

 

[milorddd]

Hi guys, Thank you for all your concern, but after a long night walk, i think its not my time yet. Sorry for making all this fuss.

I am not trying to stop you. Can I ask what happened to bring you to this point? You said you are at your lowest. Maybe talking it out will help?

apart from my health condition and my family doesn't give a crap about me anymore, my partner who is the only one who keeps me going ignored me as well. I have a mental depression since this last year and the only one I console to is my partner, but the moment she ignored me. Everything falls apart. Which led me to made the decision last night.

 

[woxihuanni]

We are glad to have you here still, never worry about making a fuss.

 

[Jean4]

Remember. We are always here. Sometimes it isn't time and sometimes talking it out is what it takes to get over the hump. I have depression. Know what it is like when an episode kicks in.