Method Popliteal artery

[disabledsuicidegirl]

I'm paralyzed and can't walk so I wont feel a thing, plus i'lll be drinking and taking pills. This artery is at the knee. how effective is that?

 

[Lost10]

Any reason not to do femoral?

 

[disabledsuicidegirl]

Any reason not to do femoral?

I dont think i can reach it, i'll try but i need another option

 

[Lost10]

I dont think i can reach it, i'll try but i need another option

Makes sense
I would do a YouTube search on angiogram as well as your preferred artery to see where everything is.

 

[disabledsuicidegirl]

Males sense

is the popliteal artery just as lethal?

 

[rs929]

Honestly I have no fucking idea on what's like being disabled like you are. So I ask you forgiveness if I say something really stupid. But is there really no chance to be happy living with a disability like yours?.

 

[Lost10]

is the popliteal artery just as lethal?

Any artery will be lethal but the femoral and carotid take you out in minutes.

 

[disabledsuicidegirl]

Any artery will be lethal but the femoral and carotid take you out in minutes.

where's the carotid?

Honestly I have no fucking idea on what's like being disabled like you are. So I ask you forgiveness if I say something really stupid. But is there really no chance to be happy living with a disability like yours?.

everytime i try to gain any independence something ALWAYS sets me back to square one. Im tired of being a burden and im tired of almost dying in hospitals, i want to control my death

 

[Lost10]

where's the carotid?

everytime i try to gain any independence something ALWAYS sets me back to square one. Im tired of being a burden and im tired of almost dying in hospitals, i want to control my death

In your neck.
This shows the artery you're asking about but it's behind your knee...

 

[disabledsuicidegirl]

In your neck.

i dont think i can do that. i'm sticking with leg and arm arteries

 

[Lost10]

i dont think i can do that. i'm sticking with leg and arm arteries

That's why i asked about the femoral. You can get to it from the front. You might want to do some research and make sure you are sure about your choices as well as what you intend to do.

 

[disabledsuicidegirl]

That's why i asked about the femoral. You can get to it from the front. You might want to do some research and make sure you are sure about your choices as well as what you intend to do.

yeah i'm researching now and some pics show the artery near the hips but now i found a few that says it's lower

 

[rs929]

where's the carotid?

everytime i try to gain any independence something ALWAYS sets me back to square one. Im tired of being a burden and im tired of almost dying in hospitals, i want to control my death

Ok but just because you have a weapon in your hands, doesn't mean you have to pull the trigger.
What I'm trying to say is, even if you learn the means to commit suicide, you can choose not to do it, and you would be still in control of your own death.
Also I think that just because you were close to achieve your independence in the past, and your failed many times, that doesn't mean you can't eventually succeed.
I just think that if you really want to do this, it's should be because there's no shed of hope left. And depression tricks us into believe that there's no hope left. And maybe I just don't know about your particular situation and maybe there's indeed no hope left and I don't know what the fuck I'm talking about, but I do know that people with disabilities may have happy lives. The logical possibility exists, at least. I'm still pro choice and I think one has the right to end it, but I think that hopelessness is temporary a lot of times, so I'm hesitant to believe that because you're permanently disabled that implies that you'll be necessarily permanently unhappy.
Wow that was long. I send you a hug.

 

[disabledsuicidegirl]

Ok but just because you have a weapon in your hands, doesn't mean you have to pull the trigger.
What I'm trying to say is, even if you learn the means to commit suicide, you can choose not to do it, and you would be still in control of your own death.
Also I think that just because you were close to achieve your independence in the past, and your failed many times, that doesn't mean you can't eventually succeed.
I just think that if you really want to do this, it's should be because there's no shed of hope left. And depression tricks us into believe that there's no hope left. And maybe I just don't know about your particular situation and maybe there's indeed no hope left and I don't know what the fuck I'm talking about, but I do know that people with disabilities may have happy lives. The logical possibility exists, at least. I'm still pro choice and I think one has the right to end it, but I think that hopelessness is temporary a lot of times, so I'm hesitant to believe that because you're permanently disabled that implies that you'll be necessarily permanently unhappy.
Wow that was long. I send you a hug.

thanks but imagine being 24 years old and you have to have someone take care of EVERYTHING for you. and then your own mom says her life ended the day you was born. Im sick of it. I have very little hope; this isn't something i'll be doing like tonight but if something happens to my mom I've always vowed to kill myself but right now im barely hanging on with or without her dying one day

Ok but just because you have a weapon in your hands, doesn't mean you have to pull the trigger.
What I'm trying to say is, even if you learn the means to commit suicide, you can choose not to do it, and you would be still in control of your own death.
Also I think that just because you were close to achieve your independence in the past, and your failed many times, that doesn't mean you can't eventually succeed.
I just think that if you really want to do this, it's should be because there's no shed of hope left. And depression tricks us into believe that there's no hope left. And maybe I just don't know about your particular situation and maybe there's indeed no hope left and I don't know what the fuck I'm talking about, but I do know that people with disabilities may have happy lives. The logical possibility exists, at least. I'm still pro choice and I think one has the right to end it, but I think that hopelessness is temporary a lot of times, so I'm hesitant to believe that because you're permanently disabled that implies that you'll be necessarily permanently unhappy.
Wow that was long. I send you a hug.

I literally tried again the other day to do something independent and it left me with an open sore, one of many that i've had and almost died because it'd turn into a pressure sore down to the bone. ive been in and out of hospitals my whole damn life
Any advice on cutting deep. I won't be able to feel the pain but like what angle?

 

[rs929]

thanks but imagine being 24 years old and you have to have someone take care of EVERYTHING for you. and then your own mom says her life ended the day you was born. Im sick of it. I have very little hope; this isn't something i'll be doing like tonight but if something happens to my mom I've always vowed to kill myself but right now im barely hanging on with or without her dying one day

I literally tried again the other day to do something independent and it left me with an open sore, one of many that i've had and almost died because it'd turn into a pressure sore down to the bone. ive been in and out of hospitals my whole damn life

Do you feel guilty for "ending" your mom's life?. I don't know your mom's feeling, but just because she said that doesn't mean she doesn't love you.
What I know for a fact is, you being born, that wasn't your choice. And the doctors screwing up wasn't your choice either. So, basically, and I want you to prove me wrong here, It's simply not your fault to come to this world and have to be taken care of.
Now, I'd think carefully wether ending things would make the lives of those who love you any easier. I don't think you should care in the first place, because you deserve to live and you deserve to be happy, but let's say you don't... would your mom be happier without you?. Aren't there other people who care for you?
I know very well the depressive demon in our minds telling us "you're such a burden! everyone would be happier without you!". But is it right tho?. Would they be better without you or would they be better seeing you HAPPY?. So maybe you can try to attain some control over that? Feeling better? Is it beyond your control?

 

[disabledsuicidegirl]

Do you feel guilty for "ending" your mom's life?. I don't know your mom's feeling, but just because she said that doesn't mean she doesn't love you.
What I know for a fact is, you being born, that wasn't your choice. And the doctors screwing up wasn't your choice either. So, basically, and I want you to prove me wrong here, It's simply not your fault to come to this world and have to be taken care of.
Now, I'd think carefully wether ending things would make the lives of those who love you any easier. I don't think you should care in the first place, because you deserve to live and you deserve to be happy, but let's say you don't... would your mom be happier without you?. Aren't there other people who care for you?
I know very well the depressive demon in our minds telling us "you're such a burden! everyone would be happier without you!". But is it right tho?. Would they be better without you or would they be better seeing you HAPPY?. So maybe you can try to attain some control over that? Feeling better? Is it beyond your control?

Everytime I try to make things better, it's never right for my mom or something major sets me back. I know she loves me and she'd probably kill herself when I do but honestly I've contemplated murder/suicide too. It's a love/hate relationship. She says all the time she needs a 'vacation' away from me. The only one I'd be hurting is my long distanced bf but ever since I was little I vowed if something happened to my mom I would kill myself because I can't live without her but lately for a long while now I'm just tired of living this way, 24 years and everything's still the same old shit

Do you feel guilty for "ending" your mom's life?. I don't know your mom's feeling, but just because she said that doesn't mean she doesn't love you.
What I know for a fact is, you being born, that wasn't your choice. And the doctors screwing up wasn't your choice either. So, basically, and I want you to prove me wrong here, It's simply not your fault to come to this world and have to be taken care of.
Now, I'd think carefully wether ending things would make the lives of those who love you any easier. I don't think you should care in the first place, because you deserve to live and you deserve to be happy, but let's say you don't... would your mom be happier without you?. Aren't there other people who care for you?
I know very well the depressive demon in our minds telling us "you're such a burden! everyone would be happier without you!". But is it right tho?. Would they be better without you or would they be better seeing you HAPPY?. So maybe you can try to attain some control over that? Feeling better? Is it beyond your control?

I feel like a little doll or a child trapped in an adult body :(

 

[rs929]

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Everytime I try to make things better, it's never right for my mom or something major sets me back. I know she loves me and she'd probably kill herself when I do but honestly I've contemplated murder/suicide too. It's a love/hate relationship. She says all the time she needs a 'vacation' away from me. The only one I'd be hurting is my long distanced bf but ever since I was little I vowed if something happened to my mom I would kill myself because I can't live without her but lately for a long while now I'm just tired of living this way, 24 years and everything's still the same old shit

I feel like a little doll or a child trapped in an adult body :(

Im so sorry for what you are going thru. I am going to sleep since it's really late here but I'll be thinking of you. Do you have any hobbies? Something you want to study? A skill? Math? Science? Programming?.
I think there could be several means out there to make something of yourself, becoming a separate individual from your mom despite needing her care. Psychology? Chemistry? Just throwing ideas

 

[disabledsuicidegirl]

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Im so sorry for what you are going thru. I am going to sleep since it's really late here but I'll be thinking of you. Do you have any hobbies? Something you want to study? A skill? Math? Science? Programming?.
I think there could be several means out there to make something of yourself, becoming a separate individual from your mom despite needing her care. Psychology? Chemistry? Just throwing ideas

I'm a filmmaker and I like acting but even hobbies doesn't change my situation

 

[Mentalmick]

If you feel the pulse on the inside of your elbow, just where the arm bends that's where 2 arteries join up. I tried there myself but the knife was too blunt. I can't say how successful you would be but it's probably the easiest one to access.