[Poll] When do you want to ctb?

[Trashcan]

For me personally, I'm not sure. I'm going to choose a day that I know I can overcome the survival instinct, and then I'll book the hotel. It will be on impulse. I've learned that when I plan dates in advance, it doesn't work. I have time between the day I decide and the date to overthink everything. Then I get nervous and back out. But if it's on impulse, I know the survival instinct won't be a bitch. I'm thinking there may be things coming up that will push me over the edge. If it wasn't for that pesky survival instinct, I would be long gone. Am wondering what other people are planning to do.

 

[Smashingairwaves]

Next year when I'm fully able to move around and actually go through with it. I have a few ideas floating around about how I want to do it, I just have to pick a choice. I would of done it long ago if I wasn't so tired

 

[TAW122]

No exact time, but it will likely be next year at the earliest as it depends on my circumstances and triggers. I already have a method in mind and will be obtaining it sometime in December if not very early in 2019. The hardest part for me is to make sure I've got everything ready and that the circumstances are just right, then boom it's done.

 

[Virgo]

November would be nice, but It will probably take a month to get everything ready.

 

[BangBangBang]

1 December :)

 

[Lifeisatrap]

I want to do it right before december but this paralizing fear of failure is what's really holding me back at this point. Late january at the latest if I can't manage to work up the courage that soon:(

 

[worldexploder]

I picked other because I wanted to be gone for along time now. I'm planning to CTB sometime in January.

 

[Paulsmith]

Ideally on or before Xmas day.

 

[stargazer]

If not tomorrow, a few days from now if all goes well and without a hitch.

 

[Paulsmith]

If not tomorrow, a few days from now if all goes well and without a hitch.

Good luck

 

[interestingname]

I wanted to today but partial only left me with a sore neck. I'll ctb as soon as I find a method I can do.

 

[Trashcan]

Now I'm thinking of doing it sometime over winter break.

 

[wanttodie]

2019

 

[Xerxes]

Other - Impulsive reactions make me susceptible to sudden urges to CTB.

 

[GoneSoon2]

Before August 2019

 

[Thoughtforms]

My birthday is end of jan so before then.
I keep changing my date. I think I might this weekend.

 

[Sinbad]

I am forced to do it before 2019 starts, due to circumstances in my life.
Can't even exit without being rushed.

 

[Roph]

Yesterday

 

[Empty Smile]

New Year's Eve. I've decided I'm leaving this shithole life as people set off fireworks.

 

[Toenditall]

Tbh it's probably going to be my dads birthday in December it's the first one since he died back in April and I think that day is going to push me over the edge I have everything ready so it won't really be on implus

 

[Thoughtforms]

I have Sunday planned if I get paid in time so I can get a hotel room.

Still keeping my options a little open though and reached out for help today

It feels really scary having a date. The closer it gets the more I panic. Am I making the worst possible mistake? What will the aftermath of my death be like? My mum is an alcoholic and I'm scared she will drink herself to death leaving my dad alone losing a wife and daughter. All these scenarios I can't stop them.

 

[Daniel22]

I need to find a good method.

 

[stargazer]

ASAP :)

 

[Goldie]

I want to go in December but if my N does not arrive it will have to be early 2019.

 

[NoOneKnows]

I planned December, but relative arrived, now its less likely I will have opportunity to not to be interrupted and saved...very unsettling,every day is a battle,that is lost

 

[Eden2k]

Initial ctb March 2nd 2019 (day after my birthday) but possibly next week, because I'll have the money by then to book a hotel. Ordering SN tomorrow, check through my prescribed and otc meds. As I'm typing this, think I'm going to book hotel for 2-days. 1st day/night I'm going to sleep, cry and.....well I don't no what else I'm going to do at the moment. 2nd day/night game over.