Alexei_Kirillov
Missed my appointment with Death
- Mar 9, 2024
- 934
If we think of our ability to bear the burden of life--and this includes everything on the hierarchy of needs, from basic bodily maintenance to self-actualization--in terms of battery power, where would you say you're at on most days?
I think the reason I "feel old" is because I'm usually around 5-15%, similar to how an 80-year-old on their death bed would ostensibly feel. This is probably what makes my suicidal ideation active, not passive; I simply don't have the battery power to even try to recharge, nevermind continue on for another few years. Hell, activities that are supposed to recharge you (like socializing, travelling, etc.) deplete me even more! I'm done. Curious to see where you guys are at.
I think the reason I "feel old" is because I'm usually around 5-15%, similar to how an 80-year-old on their death bed would ostensibly feel. This is probably what makes my suicidal ideation active, not passive; I simply don't have the battery power to even try to recharge, nevermind continue on for another few years. Hell, activities that are supposed to recharge you (like socializing, travelling, etc.) deplete me even more! I'm done. Curious to see where you guys are at.