Yes, I have. I've endured physical and emotional/mental abuse growing up. Physical was mainly during my childhood and even throughout middle and parts of high school. It soured my relations with my parents, especially my father for a long time. I still endured the mental abuse and emotional abuse until a very long time. Even now, there is still some of it though not as prevalent as before. Nevertheless, the damage is already done and it made me to who I am today. I am not looking for sympathy or pity, I'm just going to check out this year once I have everything ready and set. I don't resent my father though, I've learned to forgive and move on and as of now, currently living under parents' roof until I get around to CTB'ing. I don't plan on having a long life, career, and all that other shit that most people do, I just want to find peace, get my goals and objectives fulfilled, and finally CTB.