suffering
Too p*ssy to end it, too suicidal to leave
- Aug 17, 2018
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My cowardice is HUGE. Some people say that if one really wants to end it, it can be done, but please consider that some of us have an enormous survival instinct. Call it a handicap, a birth defect. I am thinking about starting to train my mind like a Buddhist monk, maybe it helps. I have practice meditation in the past, nothing fancy, just the 10 minutes a day focusing on breath thing, and I saw good results in the way I managed difficult situations. I didn't stick to the practice however and when I wanted to kill myself no amount of self awareness and control felt enough.
Do you think practicing meditation can help build courage? Or will it be just another futile thing on my list?
Do you think practicing meditation can help build courage? Or will it be just another futile thing on my list?