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moon_r4

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Jan 27, 2019
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Hi this is my first post. i have browsed this site and the previous subreddit before and found some comfort in reading discussions about people in similar positions, so thank you.

The main thing that holds me back from CTB is the guilt for the sadness and pain that my family would feel as a result of my actions. I feel that it would be relatively easier to lose someone to illness or an accident, than with suicide. And so, i think if it seemed like i had not intentionally killed myself, then it would be relatively easier for family to process. When i think like this, the guilt becomes less of an obstacle.

There is unfortunately no practical way of (quickly) inducing terminal illness, but i feel that with poisonous plants and mushrooms, it can easily be made to look like an accident. Many very poisonous species have some edible lookalikes, so after death it would likely be determined that death was accidental due to misidentification.

Death this way will be very unpleasant and you will suffer. But for me it may be worth it, i'm not sure yet.

Not really sure what i'm asking here. Had this stuff going round my head constantly for the last few weeks and needed to get it out. Thank you for reading.
 
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KupoCometh

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Jan 23, 2019
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Most poisonous plants and fungi take a while to kill, so it'd be unconvincing that it's an accident if you sat there for days in pain.

I'd say do your research, but off the top of my head the 'destroying angel' is lethal if not treated immediately and is plain enough you could eat it by accident, but you'll spend a couple days dying, maybe longer if you get admitted.
 
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KupoCometh

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Jan 23, 2019
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Honestly, if you're choosing plants maybe going on a 3 day 'camping trip' would be best

Also, I look out for fungi just for fun and from experience it might take you a while to find something lethal. However, now is the best time of year though, since the forest floor is clear of plants
 

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I don't think you should put yourself through that pain. Though I understand that an accidental death is 'easier' to deal with for your family than a suicide, you could take some of that pain away by writing a note or recording a video for them. Other methods are less painful, which is why I think you should consider those.
 
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Rsuicidal

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Dec 12, 2018
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Hi this is my first post. i have browsed this site and the previous subreddit before and found some comfort in reading discussions about people in similar positions, so thank you.

The main thing that holds me back from CTB is the guilt for the sadness and pain that my family would feel as a result of my actions. I feel that it would be relatively easier to lose someone to illness or an accident, than with suicide. And so, i think if it seemed like i had not intentionally killed myself, then it would be relatively easier for family to process. When i think like this, the guilt becomes less of an obstacle.

There is unfortunately no practical way of (quickly) inducing terminal illness, but i feel that with poisonous plants and mushrooms, it can easily be made to look like an accident. Many very poisonous species have some edible lookalikes, so after death it would likely be determined that death was accidental due to misidentification.

Death this way will be very unpleasant and you will suffer. But for me it may be worth it, i'm not sure yet.

Not really sure what i'm asking here. Had this stuff going round my head constantly for the last few weeks and needed to get it out. Thank you for reading.
I had a mushroom book, just about everything is inedible I assume its the same globally. It may take days however and stomach pain
 
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Last year I did some research on poisonous plants. The plan was to find a plant suitable for my own suicide. I did extensive research and my conclusion is that poisonous plants and mushrooms really are a painfull way to ctb by. I would advise against this method.

I did no research on narcotic plants however since there aren't any growing where I live. Maybe this is worth checking out? Depends on where you live of course.
 
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