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crippled with grief
- Nov 8, 2021
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A Letter To The One I Lost
- By J
This is a letter to the one I adored
Never forgiving oneself
for making you bored
A letter to say
"my love? Not enough"
For you deserve all the extra stuff
Times are changing
and I ask myself why?
Because for all your strength
I am lacking behind
Tears in my eyes
reveal truth upon these lines
Explosive anger
just love in disguise
A letter to say
time apart made me ponder
"How to get better?"
one did wonder
To improve myself and to grow as my human
For mental illness should be of no excuse
The intent of this growth is more than just getting through
Reflect on the times I did not pay attention
Your cries of help
that you would mention
Missing your warmth made me face the cold
To reflect on those faults which grew all so old
It's not grown on trees
I took it for granted
Your words of affirmation
oh so enchanted
For these long days I will never forget
as a reminder to work
to avoid more regret
A letter to say
my love you can't deny
I pray it's not too late
to make you mine
I would take the blame
whatever our crime
An affection for you that can't be quantified
Unable to change
what is the past
The events that occurred
will forever last
But with awareness
can influence the next
For I hope it is a future where we re-join the same track
Because when it comes to you
I can't turn my back
A letter to say
I admit my impatience
With you I can't help
but be flirtatious
You are correct
I must have solo endeavours
But I'll always have one main goal:
being with you forever
A letter to say
I'm sorry it got so intense
A product of my anxiety
in my defence
A letter to say
I think of you all the time
My ride and die
all the way to the sky
Emily's importance
I can't put to one side
And your rejection causes my tears
it has to be said
But I would fight for you
until I am dead
'To live' and 'to love' there's only one letter
that separate the meanings that bind them together
You and I are soulmates
forever and ever,
J
- By J
This is a letter to the one I adored
Never forgiving oneself
for making you bored
A letter to say
"my love? Not enough"
For you deserve all the extra stuff
Times are changing
and I ask myself why?
Because for all your strength
I am lacking behind
Tears in my eyes
reveal truth upon these lines
Explosive anger
just love in disguise
A letter to say
time apart made me ponder
"How to get better?"
one did wonder
To improve myself and to grow as my human
For mental illness should be of no excuse
The intent of this growth is more than just getting through
Reflect on the times I did not pay attention
Your cries of help
that you would mention
Missing your warmth made me face the cold
To reflect on those faults which grew all so old
It's not grown on trees
I took it for granted
Your words of affirmation
oh so enchanted
For these long days I will never forget
as a reminder to work
to avoid more regret
A letter to say
my love you can't deny
I pray it's not too late
to make you mine
I would take the blame
whatever our crime
An affection for you that can't be quantified
Unable to change
what is the past
The events that occurred
will forever last
But with awareness
can influence the next
For I hope it is a future where we re-join the same track
Because when it comes to you
I can't turn my back
A letter to say
I admit my impatience
With you I can't help
but be flirtatious
You are correct
I must have solo endeavours
But I'll always have one main goal:
being with you forever
A letter to say
I'm sorry it got so intense
A product of my anxiety
in my defence
A letter to say
I think of you all the time
My ride and die
all the way to the sky
Emily's importance
I can't put to one side
And your rejection causes my tears
it has to be said
But I would fight for you
until I am dead
'To live' and 'to love' there's only one letter
that separate the meanings that bind them together
You and I are soulmates
forever and ever,
J
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