Help Please tell me staying home because I'm sick won't fuck up everything

[Ratherbeskinny]

I've been doing very well at school this schoolyear. I've worked hard and won't miss a lot (I'll be able to get all the work that I was suppossed to be doing this entire week done in one day). I did stay home quite a lot for the last few weeks because of a renovation in our house, though. I've been sick this entire week and even though I feel a bit better, I don't feel good enough to go to school again. I'm just so scared they'll think I'm not motivated anymore and I'm scared the same thing that happened last year (stayed homr a lot because of other reasons, which eventually led to me going to another school) will happen now. Even with all the suicidal thoughts and me being terribly depressed, I still feel "motivated" to do good in school. I don't want to fuck it up, even if it all won't matter in the end. I'm scared people think I'm looking for excuses. A lot of people who feel the same way like I do now, would still go to school, but I just can't. Physicially but especially mentally I'm just exhausted. Please tell me something that will take away a bit of my stress, but be honest as well. I just need someone to see how heavy life still is for me. I need someone to understand what I'm going through.

 

[jgm63]

Well you could try watching videos of spiritual teacher, Barry Long, eg how about trying out this :

Spoiler: HOW TO STOP THINKING

and then perhaps :

Spoiler: Start Meditating NOW

But also, perhaps tell us a bit more about why you feel you might want to CTB ?

 

[Sensei]

I'm teacher. I don't know how teachers are in your country and there are plenty of exceptions, but I think that if you dare to be completely honest to your teachers and tell them exactly how you feel,, they will be empathetic and want to help you. I'm uncertain if you should tell them about your suicidal thoughts, though. I've had pupils who have been suicidal and we've been able to help them all, knock on wood, but things may work differently in your country.

 

[pole]

i definitely can relate. the only thing iv really wanted to do and felt motivated to do was do well in school. last semester, earlier this year was my worst schooling year in life. i was so physically tired but also mentally exhausted that there were classes that i had not even been to. im also in a law program, so lectures are literally required. id never seen my professors, been inside the actual classroom, etc. i wanted to do well, but i was absolutely mentally done.

Here in canada, they have such things under Disability Accomodation that allow you to take reduced courseloads and less classes and credits and still do well in you're specific program depending on you're issue. And mental health applies to this accomodation. Its just reducing the classes you take and workload so it eases you're stress and anxiety and allows you to take on as much school and work as you can handle. idk about other places in the world, id definitely talk to you're counselor.

also trying to clear you're mind. doing things to motivate you not mentally to do well but the willingness to physically get up and go to school. i took vyvanse from friends as study aid to help me with motivation and forcing me to go to school and paced myself and it helped.

hope you find a way in continuing to do well. wish you find peace.

 

[c824767]

I've been doing very well at school this schoolyear. I've worked hard and won't miss a lot (I'll be able to get all the work that I was suppossed to be doing this entire week done in one day). I did stay home quite a lot for the last few weeks because of a renovation in our house, though. I've been sick this entire week and even though I feel a bit better, I don't feel good enough to go to school again. I'm just so scared they'll think I'm not motivated anymore and I'm scared the same thing that happened last year (stayed homr a lot because of other reasons, which eventually led to me going to another school) will happen now. Even with all the suicidal thoughts and me being terribly depressed, I still feel "motivated" to do good in school. I don't want to fuck it up, even if it all won't matter in the end. I'm scared people think I'm looking for excuses. A lot of people who feel the same way like I do now, would still go to school, but I just can't. Physicially but especially mentally I'm just exhausted. Please tell me something that will take away a bit of my stress, but be honest as well. I just need someone to see how heavy life still is for me. I need someone to understand what I'm going through.

talk to your teachers. many students have stress problems. They talk to their teachers and find a solution. It is normal. The teachers are used to it. do not worry.

 

[Ratherbeskinny]

Thank you all for your replies. Unfortunately, I can't talk with my teachers about it. I've tried that before and it has led to me having to find another school and being home for over 6 months, full of massive stress all the time. It was worse than hell, I can't go back there. I know I can do it, school is a piece of cake for me when it comes to the assignments and stuff. It's just.. idk. It's something else.

 

[c824767]

Thank you all for your replies. Unfortunately, I can't talk with my teachers about it. I've tried that before and it has led to me having to find another school and being home for over 6 months, full of massive stress all the time. It was worse than hell, I can't go back there. I know I can do it, school is a piece of cake for me when it comes to the assignments and stuff. It's just.. idk. It's something else.

you have to find an advocate who speaks for you....sorry I know it probably sounds almost impossible but it is the only way...you have to get through to the teachers so they cut you some slack. I have a good friend who is a college professor, she deals with students coming to her with stress related issues all the time. It is quite common, do not give up, you have a voice, insist that it be heard.

 

[Ratbat]

I've been doing very well at school this schoolyear. I've worked hard and won't miss a lot (I'll be able to get all the work that I was suppossed to be doing this entire week done in one day). I did stay home quite a lot for the last few weeks because of a renovation in our house, though. I've been sick this entire week and even though I feel a bit better, I don't feel good enough to go to school again. I'm just so scared they'll think I'm not motivated anymore and I'm scared the same thing that happened last year (stayed homr a lot because of other reasons, which eventually led to me going to another school) will happen now. Even with all the suicidal thoughts and me being terribly depressed, I still feel "motivated" to do good in school. I don't want to fuck it up, even if it all won't matter in the end. I'm scared people think I'm looking for excuses. A lot of people who feel the same way like I do now, would still go to school, but I just can't. Physicially but especially mentally I'm just exhausted. Please tell me something that will take away a bit of my stress, but be honest as well. I just need someone to see how heavy life still is for me. I need someone to understand what I'm going through.

Fuck school man that destroyed my life the teachers conspire against me and the students were paid to bully me in clever ways

 

[c824767]

Fuck school man that destroyed my life the teachers conspire against me and the students were paid to bully me in clever ways

I would not believe you if I had not heard the story of a girl who was in the same class with 2 TWO girls who have committed suicide. they were all bullied. The teachers knew and did nothing. WTF