Help Please talk some sense into me

[Rocksandsand]

I really want to take my SN. Now.

But I know I am not ready. I need to organise delayed emails, figure out how to ensure my family aren't exposed to stuff they mightn't want to see (everything from drug paraphernalia to sex toys), organise a place for my dog to go...

But life is particularly unbearable right now.

Can anyone please, please be the logical voice here. I am really struggling right now to think clearly.

 

[DreamCatcher]

Give yourself some cooldown time. Tell yourself that once you've settled affairs and you're ready then you can go for it. Maybe a day or a week or a month, whatever you need to put your affairs in order.

Take the time you need to finish what you need to finish, and don't push yourself one way or the other. It'll still be there when you're ready to go, whenever that may be.

The timing is all up to you, but if you feel like it's hard to think clearly I'd wait until you can consider it from a cool headed point of view. CTB isn't something to be rushed into in a panic, that's when people make mistakes and do it wrong.

 

[Rocksandsand]

@DreamCatcher thank you for responding. I am really struggling at the moment.

The hardest bit right now is that I actually think I would succeed right now. I have enough meto for a stat dose, I have the SN. I also have a stockpile of blood pressure medication that would be sufficient even without the SN on top.

I have taken valium a few hours ago and it hasn't worked. I am smoking a joint now to try and calm down

 

[DreamCatcher]

@DreamCatcher thank you for responding. I am really struggling at the moment.

The hardest bit right now is that I actually think I would succeed right now. I have enough meto for a stat dose, I have the SN. I also have a stockpile of blood pressure medication that would be sufficient even without the SN on top.

I have taken valium a few hours ago and it hasn't worked. I am smoking a joint now to try and calm down

Personally I'd wait until I was in a calm state of mind, but each person chooses their own time. IWaiting until you're ready and sure is usually a good idea. If you aren't 100% sure, then maybe wait 24 hours and think about it then.

It's as always your choice. I hope you find peace with whatever you choose and whenever your time comes.

 

[Aardwolf]

Hello my fellow Australian. I know its difficult but just try and focus on the fact that 100% the SN will still be there tomorrow however what you are feeling now may or may not be.

I hope you feel better soon.

 

[JoeFailure]

Just PM'ed you if you need to talk. Don't feel like you have to if you don't 100% feel like now's the time.

 

[Rocksandsand]

@Aardwolf thank you. It's nice to know there are other Australians here. I live in Melbourne and sometimes I look across the cityscape and wonder if there's other people on SS..

I'm pushing to wait around 24 hours before I do anything or take anything. I'm trying to form a little to-do list so I can act soon but not impulsively.