dandan

dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
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Wouldn't it be easier...

if some one just please -- please kill me...

someone , anyone, please shoot me... kill me...

I really cant continue thinking about ctb and continue living.....

Is like thinking in ctb has decreased any reasons I had to live... . when I think about living... I can only see how hard it will get from now on...
... I dont want to...

im sorry....
 
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Psilo

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I shoot you, if you shoot me first!
 
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dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
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okay, but come to Mexico,and lets drink couple bottles of N first
 
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Tod durch das Seil
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9626 Can I join in? Lol
 
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One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
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could it be easier with a partner? I dunno , maybe...

haha im not kidding....

i'm not kidding..... life doesnt seem to be going to get any better from now on...
 
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Roberto

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How many times I imagined that someone blows my head with a gun.
 
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could it be easier with a partner? I dunno , maybe...

haha im not kidding....

i'm not kidding..... life doesnt seem to be going to get any better from now on...
accountability could help, I believe there will always be some fear in facing death. Especially if it's not quick, and or setup time takes awhile.
 
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dandan

One more attempt on life.
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accountability could help, I believe there will always be some fear in facing death. Especially if it's not quick, and or setup time takes awhile.

Setup time?
I have to take metoclopramide for 48 hours, every 8 hours... I've done it once... and its okay...
the "setup time" is opening the bottles and drinking them... .so damm hard...
sure, the hour before with a light snack... and so and so..

but yes fear is present
 
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Tod durch das Seil
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Setup time?
I have to take metoclopramide for 48 hours, every 8 hours... I've done it once... and its okay...
the "setup time" is opening the bottles and drinking them... .so damm hard...
sure, the hour before with a light snack... and so and so..

but yes fear is present

Ah yes, sorry, I'm going the hanging route and at first setup would be daunting or like... messing with my head, knowing that it would be the end. Repetition has made it light years easier. Personally, pills, powders/medicines scare the shit out of me.... yet I have no problem doing trial partial hangings in my room and office hahaha

The brain is such a beautifully chaotic thing.
 
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Santiago

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Go to a shady neighborhood and do something that pisses them off
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I daydream about someone taking a gun to my head and pulling the trigger. If only...
 
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Maria M

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could it be easier with a partner? I dunno , maybe...

haha im not kidding....

i'm not kidding..... life doesnt seem to be going to get any better from now on...
I'm with ya. I was thinking it would be great to have a partner too, but I'm in NY. I want to get a motel room here maybe later this month. I'm concerned about having EPS with the metoclopramide and I'm debating which regimen I should follow. Did you only take 10 mg at a time? I have some mild EPS symptoms now whenever I feel anxious. I'm concerned that if I have EPS symptoms in the motel room, I might need an assistant to help me drink the N.
 
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One more attempt on life.
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I'm with ya. I was thinking it would be great to have a partner too, but I'm in NY. I want to get a motel room here maybe later this month. I'm concerned about having EPS with the metoclopramide and I'm debating which regimen I should follow. Did you only take 10 mg at a time? I have some mild EPS symptoms now whenever I feel anxious. I'm concerned that if I have EPS symptoms in the motel room, I might need an assistant to help me drink the N.
I tested with metoclopramide last weekend... .10mg every 8 hours, for 24 hours... I was fine...
whenever I do it, I'll do 10mg every 8 hours and 20 or 30mg 1 hour before N

I know I have no bad reaction to meto
 
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wanttodie

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Apr 19, 2018
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that's how I fell someone , anyone, please shoot me... kill me.
 
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Roadkill

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I also wish that someone would shoot me until I am dead
 
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