Venting Please just ignore

[moshimoshi]

I'm just a stupid fucking waste of human flesh. Everything I always fuck up in the end and I feel as if I'll never be able to do anything right

I don't deserve to eat to sleep to feel relaxed to have my own space I don't even deserve ground to stand on I deserve to be tortured to death and feeling ever single bit of fucking horrible things I've caused others to wash over me so I can feel inside and out how much of a worthless, broken, and defected living thing that I've become. I hate myself so much I hate myself. I'm spiraling and I just want to stab myself in the stomach over and over and over and over and over and over I don't even deserve to have internet, friends. Or any basic human right, I should just be abused and kicked around and fucking killed like the horrifying piece of trash I am

 

[Dark Window]

The only thing I can suggest is speak to a professional if you haven't already and they may be able to help you deal with these feelings

Don't know what else to say.

 

[Pluto]

 

[Praestat_Mori]

We don't ignore your suffering!

You don't deserve this!! I wish I could help you!!

 

[goodoldnoname923]

I'm just a stupid fucking waste of human flesh. Everything I always fuck up in the end and I feel as if I'll never be able to do anything right

I don't deserve to eat to sleep to feel relaxed to have my own space I don't even deserve ground to stand on I deserve to be tortured to death and feeling ever single bit of fucking horrible things I've caused others to wash over me so I can feel inside and out how much of a worthless, broken, and defected living thing that I've become. I hate myself so much I hate myself. I'm spiraling and I just want to stab myself in the stomach over and over and over and over and over and over I don't even deserve to have internet, friends. Or any basic human right, I should just be abused and kicked around and fucking killed like the horrifying piece of trash I am

Why do you feel you deserve all this pain and suffering? Like what did you ever do in your life to deserve this,surely you can't be as bad as i?

I can't say i don't relate to your struggle and pain though as i have had such thoughts in graphical detail too don't believe i've even written about them though

I had reoccuring thoughts of my old friend kimchi toturing me in some ways simliar to how you have described,being punched,kicked,stabbed,cut,having my limbs smashed and my fingers broken being tried to a chair and restrained against my will my plees to be free ignored or begs for mercy…heck i've even imagined getting R'd so…yet more details I haven't even described the takeaway is me been broken and made to feel the way i've made others feel…a well deserved karma in a way

I dont know your story and i'm open to hearint about your guilt regrets mistakes and etc but bad and evil people don't feel this amount of self hatred and wouldn't want to be punished either

Even if part of you was a bad person at some point (which i don't believe btw) your certainly not now to be feeling this way

So please don't beat yourself up for your past….you don't deserve it as much as you think you do

 

[Ash]

We don't ignore your suffering!

You don't deserve this!! I wish I could help you!!

This

 

[timetodie24]

I'm just a stupid fucking waste of human flesh. Everything I always fuck up in the end and I feel as if I'll never be able to do anything right

I don't deserve to eat to sleep to feel relaxed to have my own space I don't even deserve ground to stand on I deserve to be tortured to death and feeling ever single bit of fucking horrible things I've caused others to wash over me so I can feel inside and out how much of a worthless, broken, and defected living thing that I've become. I hate myself so much I hate myself. I'm spiraling and I just want to stab myself in the stomach over and over and over and over and over and over I don't even deserve to have internet, friends. Or any basic human right, I should just be abused and kicked around and fucking killed like the horrifying piece of trash I am

I feel this deeply myself too . I wish I had something useful to say. But I hear you and I really do feel your pain. I could've written that about myself.
But whatever you've done, no one deserves to feel so completely worthless and in so much unbearable pain. No matter what your brain tells you:

 

[moshimoshi]

I should just kill myself im just stupid and I'm sorry I'm so worthless I don't know how I fucking degraded this much as a human. I don't deserve any kind words I don't deserve safe space my whole life I've been awful. Especially don't deserve empathy, even as a child I was so useless. And no w I'm pouring everything out and embarrassing myself I hate myself for being this way I just want to it to stop and

 

[Saturn_]

The kindest people in this world really seem to hate themselves the most out of all of us. You beat yourself up so much and talk about yourself as if you are as diabolical as the monster under every child's bed. Yet your presence is never anything but supportive and gentle. It's so unfair.

 

[LifeIsBS]

The kindest people in this world really seem to hate themselves the most out of all of us. You beat yourself up so much and talk about yourself as if you are as diabolical as the monster under every child's bed. Yet your presence is never anything but supportive and gentle. It's so unfair.

yeah, and i blame the society for making them think like that. i used to blame and hurt myself for everything that i went through, but then i saw and realised that the society is the actual hive mastermind. which can literally make anyone believe that everything is their fault. its sickening.

 

[KillingPain267]

I'm just a stupid fucking waste of human flesh. Everything I always fuck up in the end and I feel as if I'll never be able to do anything right

I don't deserve to eat to sleep to feel relaxed to have my own space I don't even deserve ground to stand on I deserve to be tortured to death and feeling ever single bit of fucking horrible things I've caused others to wash over me so I can feel inside and out how much of a worthless, broken, and defected living thing that I've become. I hate myself so much I hate myself. I'm spiraling and I just want to stab myself in the stomach over and over and over and over and over and over I don't even deserve to have internet, friends. Or any basic human right, I should just be abused and kicked around and fucking killed like the horrifying piece of trash I am

Also speaking like this to myself sometimes is oddly therapeutic, well, only for a short while