AlexKy
Member
- Dec 16, 2021
- 78
I tried again partial hanging and I just can't do it. I can't put my weight in for long enough to pass out and die, I'm just to afraid, as soon as I get woozy I pull back.
I called my brother and I told him everything.
At first the words would not come out, then I just crumbled in tears and without breath. I asked him to help me die, he declined obviously.
I planned my suicide for so long, mastered the technique of partial in trial runs, all the effort at self destruction, only for SI to win in minutes.
I guess it's true that quitting becomes a habit, and should be avoided. Oh my world, how I would like to have a conversation with a person that successfully ctb, just to see how they prepared mentally.
The method doesn't matter, it's the courage to do it that's the problem, for me at least.
I see a lot of people that went to great lengths to get N, then they second guess it, they get afraid of the taste, and when the times comes get scared and flush it down the toilet.
Survivors of suicide that were close to dying, (that doctors had to revive) how did you do it, how did you prepare mentally?
PLEASE HELP? PLEASE HELP!
I called my brother and I told him everything.
At first the words would not come out, then I just crumbled in tears and without breath. I asked him to help me die, he declined obviously.
I planned my suicide for so long, mastered the technique of partial in trial runs, all the effort at self destruction, only for SI to win in minutes.
I guess it's true that quitting becomes a habit, and should be avoided. Oh my world, how I would like to have a conversation with a person that successfully ctb, just to see how they prepared mentally.
The method doesn't matter, it's the courage to do it that's the problem, for me at least.
I see a lot of people that went to great lengths to get N, then they second guess it, they get afraid of the taste, and when the times comes get scared and flush it down the toilet.
Survivors of suicide that were close to dying, (that doctors had to revive) how did you do it, how did you prepare mentally?
PLEASE HELP? PLEASE HELP!