Help please help with ctb!!!!!

[iwannaenditfinally]

I've been really struggling lately, and idk if i can do it anymore.
I've been thinking about ctb really often and in a last month, it was every fucking day like fr.
I've tried to get help - can't get it. And if I would I'm risking loosing my nic and I just can not do that. And i feel like the help would be temporary, as always.
I have chorphothixen, but overdosing on that is really hard and if it would go wrong it would be painful af
I can't really buy anything online cuz of the way my fam is treating me cuz they know i would try to ctb
But i do wanna catch it. i really do
i live in EU so theoretically i could order and pay it irl but idrk what to buy and not to be too expencive cuz if i wouldn't do it that day, i don't wanna listen to another '' u can't be stealing from ur fam!!!''
please help me to ctb cuz i really just can't stand another pitty talk or trinna make u feel better talk
-R

 

[Nephis]

Spend time researching the methods here, I'm sorry to say but we cannot explain to you the particulars of what would be best for you, it would never do it justice for the time that can spent trying to learn from everything here in the resources. I truly feel your pain, but please be at peace with yourself first before you make any choices, make your choices calmly, being desperate will only cause mistakes and regrets, do not cause yourself anymore pain than you already have.

~I hope for you, future peaceful days

 

[FuneralCry]

I do understand that it's tiring feeling trapped here when you just wish to leave. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find what you search for.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

You will find a lot about reliable methods here and as you already said in OP and OD is never a good option. I hope you can find peace!

 

[day]

No one is really going to tell you exactly what you should do and how to do it. We're supportive and will attempt to help with prep and you can always vent here as well but you decide your fate OP. Plenty of helpful forums around here for reliable methods so I hope you get the answers you're looking for quickly.

Sorry the world brought you to this point OP. I hope regardless you peace and happiness.

 

[chahan.trading]

I've been really struggling lately, and idk if i can do it anymore.
I've been thinking about ctb really often and in a last month, it was every fucking day like fr.
I've tried to get help - can't get it. And if I would I'm risking loosing my nic and I just can not do that. And i feel like the help would be temporary, as always.
I have chorphothixen, but overdosing on that is really hard and if it would go wrong it would be painful af
I can't really buy anything online cuz of the way my fam is treating me cuz they know i would try to ctb
But i do wanna catch it. i really do
i live in EU so theoretically i could order and pay it irl but idrk what to buy and not to be too expencive cuz if i wouldn't do it that day, i don't wanna listen to another '' u can't be stealing from ur fam!!!''
please help me to ctb cuz i really just can't stand another pitty talk or trinna make u feel better talk
-R

Sodium Cyanide.

 

[The anhedonic one]

So sorry you are going through this. The Overdose method is unreliable and has a high probability of organ damage.
There are far better methods than this. There's plenty of information on the forum to help you decide which method is best for you.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Sodium Cyanide.

Why would you recommend a painful method? CN- is certainly painful. And it's difficult do obtain NaCN or KCN in Europe.

 

[chahan.trading]

Why would you recommend a painful method? CN- is certainly painful. And it's difficult do obtain NaCN or KCN in Europe.

I hope you didn't feel bad, i am sorry for my answer but I only recommended it because it is highly effective. If you want to do it, regardless of pain, you will.

You can always choose something less painful, but most of them are not as highly effective and can lead to surviving that can cause more trouble for you (side effects) and to your love ones (obligations like hospitalizations and such).

 

[iwannaenditfinally]

I hope you didn't feel bad, i am sorry for my answer but I only recommended it because it is highly effective. If you want to do it, regardless of pain, you will.

You can always choose something less painful, but most of them are not as highly effective and can lead to surviving that can cause more trouble for you (side effects) and to your love ones (obligations like hospitalizations and such).

do u think if i hypothetically somehow got it and if i'd mix with some strong pain killers (which i have) and sleeping pills it could be less painless?
btw if u also have some less painful but reliable method im here to hear ideas!!!

So sorry you are going through this. The Overdose method is unreliable and has a high probability of organ damage.
There are far better methods than this. There's plenty of information on the forum to help you decide which method is best for you.

i saw lot of methods on here but mostly just SI kicks in yk :(

 

[Praestat_Mori]

do u think if i hypothetically somehow got it and if i'd mix with some strong pain killers (which i have) and sleeping pills it could be less painless?
btw if u also have some less painful but reliable method im here to hear ideas!!!

You can have a look in the Suicide Resource Compilation and read about methods there. If you have strong anesthetics like morphine and you are unconscious you may not feel the pain.

 

[chahan.trading]

do u think if i hypothetically somehow got it and if i'd mix with some strong pain killers (which i have) and sleeping pills it could be less painless?
btw if u also have some less painful but reliable method im here to hear ideas!!!

i saw lot of methods on here but mostly just SI kicks in yk :(

Hello, I am not sure because i haven't tried yet, although i set my date to end my life with sodium cyanide that i have. I have so much that I want it to be instant.