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SamK
Cloud Surfing
- Aug 21, 2018
- 280
Hey all
I am going once and for all this time and i wont be leaving any room to be found by anybody.
I have swung between morphine overdose (i have access to morphine on a regular basis because of severe 10/10 disabling pain, but i dont want to leave room for survival, naloxone would reverse that quickly if i were found, and i dont intend to be found this time (see my last thread, i was almost sectioned, had to go psych ward.)
I have purchased a tent - a malawi tent- which is known to be a good one.
I now need to find some facts on how i can use a bbq to cause carbon monoxide poisoning to end my life.
Now i plan to do this in an entirely secluded spot where i wouldnt be found for weeks, and have made it very, very clear and careful i wont be endangerng anybody. There will be red and yellow neon tape and signs all around for anybody who will find me
Now.. will disposable bbq's be ok? how many of those? what do i do next?
Seal the tent.. have a little alcohol on me but not too much. just enough to help me relax.. some benzos would be good but i wont have any, i can't find any. So what can i use in place of those? to help sedate? I was thinking, i have melatonin, that workks very well for me. I'd ideally like to be nearly asleep before the CO takes me.
Now any advice? i really need it. My life is a misery, i am going once and for all,
I cant do this anymore. I tried meds, hospital. My life has fallen apart, i wont go into it, but nobody would want to live in my shoes
Family are going away in ten days, giving me time to 'run away' with my tent and all else i need, to a secluded spot. I'll stay there for one day, prepping, taping and sealing the tent, making sure i am covering all bases telling people i'm going away for business or something like that (have yet to plan) then .. on a full moon.. (hopefully that night) 24th, i'll be gazing, praying, drinking, reminiscing, listening my music and gently just drift
Do you need my details of height and weight? if so pm me or something. I'm a female of medium build
Thanks for replying
xox
I am going once and for all this time and i wont be leaving any room to be found by anybody.
I have swung between morphine overdose (i have access to morphine on a regular basis because of severe 10/10 disabling pain, but i dont want to leave room for survival, naloxone would reverse that quickly if i were found, and i dont intend to be found this time (see my last thread, i was almost sectioned, had to go psych ward.)
I have purchased a tent - a malawi tent- which is known to be a good one.
I now need to find some facts on how i can use a bbq to cause carbon monoxide poisoning to end my life.
Now i plan to do this in an entirely secluded spot where i wouldnt be found for weeks, and have made it very, very clear and careful i wont be endangerng anybody. There will be red and yellow neon tape and signs all around for anybody who will find me
Now.. will disposable bbq's be ok? how many of those? what do i do next?
Seal the tent.. have a little alcohol on me but not too much. just enough to help me relax.. some benzos would be good but i wont have any, i can't find any. So what can i use in place of those? to help sedate? I was thinking, i have melatonin, that workks very well for me. I'd ideally like to be nearly asleep before the CO takes me.
Now any advice? i really need it. My life is a misery, i am going once and for all,
I cant do this anymore. I tried meds, hospital. My life has fallen apart, i wont go into it, but nobody would want to live in my shoes
Family are going away in ten days, giving me time to 'run away' with my tent and all else i need, to a secluded spot. I'll stay there for one day, prepping, taping and sealing the tent, making sure i am covering all bases telling people i'm going away for business or something like that (have yet to plan) then .. on a full moon.. (hopefully that night) 24th, i'll be gazing, praying, drinking, reminiscing, listening my music and gently just drift
Do you need my details of height and weight? if so pm me or something. I'm a female of medium build
Thanks for replying
xox