Please convince me not to kill myself

[sohopelessandempty]

I haven't made any plans yet and not sure if I ever will for many reasons so I don't want anyone thinking I killed myself, I just want comfort. I came to the recovery section because I want to be comforted and talked out of suicide. Sometimes I don't want to be talked out of it but in those cases I'll just go to the suicide discussion section. I feel like recovery is the right one to ask to convince me not to though. I want people to tell me not to kill myself, to convince me to live and to say they care. I'm probably going to bed soon since it's late here, so don't worry if I don't reply soon. Sorry I'm just used to people worrying about that stuff because of society's view on suicide, not sure if anyone would worry I'm dead here but I just get paranoid. I have a fear of emergency services being sent to my house to save me or something, sounds ridiculous since this is online but people find where others live on the internet all the time. I'd hope you guys aren't that crazy. Anyways though someone please comfort me, I can't kill myself for many other reasons but also I don't want to betray the person I love the most. I promised my boyfriend I wouldn't ctb and I never want to break a promise to him. Life is just so unbearable.

 

[grapefruit04]

Suicidal thoughts can be so strong sometimes but they will pass. Let your mind rest, you will be okay. From experience, being in a fearful emotional state doesn't allow you to truly think clearly. So even if just for a moment, give your mind some space. You can figure it out when the fog has lifted and you can see more clearly. I don't know what you're dealing with in life, but you are stronger than you think. I hope that you have a restful night of sleep.