I wouldn't risk it. That much Xanax (a bottle?) can also cause severe restlessness. If you're comfortable using an exit bag, then pair it with an inert gas to ensure success.
I've never tried Xanax before so I have no idea how it's going to affect me, what kind of restlessness do you mean? I've heard of people meaning to just chill at home on Xanax and then going out and crashing their car. I have lots of weed I can smoke too, to help with the restlessness? some really heavy indicas that always calm me down or just knock me out.
How much Xanax do you recommend? And what if I take an anti emetic?
Xanax is risky, especially if you've never tried it, because everyone's physical and emotional responses to that drug can vary so widely. Xanax + weed + plastic bag = no guarantee of success, in part given the CO2 component and the body's survival instinct.
Don't overcomplicate the process and risk having things go wrong. If you have access to pure helium (from a welding supply store), then the other products--Xanax, melatonin, weed, alcohol--are all completely unnecessary. When properly assembled, pure helium and an exit bag provide an absolutely peaceful, painless departure. Search the threads created by Fightingsioux about inert gas for invaluable, error-free guidance.
That's really like my sleep apnea, only most of the times the apnea comes before the sleep
This was very helpful thank you! Really wish I could get my hands on some opiates and explore my options with those.
Thank you so much! One important question- would a potential rip in the bag, leaking helium, endanger my cats?
I'd be as concerned about a potential rip in the bag compromising the success and comfort of your own experience. Please use a brand new bag, as in a turkey roasting bag you buy in a 2-pack at the grocery store. I cannot overemphasize the importance of carefully following the comprehensive instructions provided in fightingsioux's inert gas thread (plug his name into the search block above), to include leaving room at the opening for excess helium to escape as it also keeps the bag inflated. No rips should result. Your cats should be fine, provided you aren't in a small, enclosed space with them. Leave a window cracked, and ensure your body is found within several hours--both for the sake of your pets AND for friends/loved ones who find you. Orpheus, if you have any doubts regarding your decision to ctb, then by all means, wait. Reflect and take all the time you need to be sure. The helium/exit bag technique, if executed properly (as fightingsioux describes), is NOT a mere suicidal gesture or experiment. You are beyond the point of no return after 8-10 seconds. Be sure. Wishing you peace.
I mean yeah, of course I'm also worried about a rip ruining my plans, but I live alone and am worried about endangering my cats, who will absolutely try to near me too. Since I live alone a friend will make the call for me if they haven't heard from me in about a day. Why is being found in a few hours important? Or is that in fightingsioux's thread too? I did look through a bit of it so far.
Being found relatively quickly is undoubtedly just a personal concern of mine, since the cats will get hungry (I have one, too) and they'll be anxious as your body starts undergoing physical changes immediately after death. I'm likely still also traumatized by the death of my best friend who took her life in this way, but wasn't discovered for four days. She was nearly unrecognizable. If the room around you is well ventilated, I'm confident your kitties will be fine. The space at the bag's opening (a tail's width) isn't big enough that they can wriggle their heads inside, and the air flow from that crack is a relatively gentle one (18-20 LPM for helium) so the bag will not burst or tear. Your doubts are natural... we are conditioned all our lives to fear or resist death. Making peace with one's decision to leave "early" can truly be a complex, heartbreaking process.
