planning

[hybridtheory]

hi

My date is set for March 20 (significant reason is for Chester Bennington's birthday, I miss him every day and I just find that date to be enough time for me to get my affairs in order)
I'm going to rent a hotel room and partial hang in the bathroom by using the door. I live alone and have a dog, but I don't feel right doing it in my house while he's there. I'm going to notify a family member that has a key to my place to pick my dog up, but I'm not going to explain why.

I also saw my therapist yesterday and I know what not to say to her so I'm not dragged off to the hospital. But, she basically figured everything out by assuming through my silence and said I need to seek treatment. I denied everything, she set up another appointment for next week. I fear she's going to interrupt my plan and I don't know how to avoid being sent to the hospital before my date.

-__- any advice or feedback would be much appreciated

 

[Kibby]

There's no way this can lead to anything unless you open up right? It would be so inhumane. Sounds dumb but I guess you have to keep secrets from ur therapist, that's just how it is

 

[hybridtheory]

There's no way this can lead to anything unless you open up right? It would be so inhumane. Sounds dumb but I guess you have to keep secrets from ur therapist, that's just how it is

Yeah it sucks that you can't fully be open and honest with a therapist without worrying they're going to always assume you need the hospital. It kinda makes therapy pointless if you always have to lie. But I fear it's my only option, staying completely silent.

 

[Kibby]

Yeah I get it. This is why i desired so much for a friend to understand me but in the end no one cares. Well it is what it is

 

[sufferingsensless]

Ye just don't yap and u good fam
Kudos u got balls to hang urself I found I wanna do the exit bag with nitrogen or so but saving for my funeral and sometimes life got in the way a spark of hope and delusion

 

[hybridtheory]

Yeah I get it. This is why i desired so much for a friend to understand me but in the end no one cares. Well it is what it is

Well, I care about you. You're welcome to message me anytime, if you need someone to listen.

Ye just don't yap and u good fam
Kudos u got balls to hang urself I found I wanna do the exit bag with nitrogen or so but saving for my funeral and sometimes life got in the way a spark of hope and delusion

Hanging has always been my go to method. I don't know much about the exit bag method. May I ask why you're saving for your funeral? Do you have family?

 

[sufferingsensless]

Well, I care about you. You're welcome to message me anytime, if you need someone to listen.

Hanging has always been my go to method. I don't know much about the exit bag method. May I ask why you're saving for your funeral? Do you have family?

Yeah im just way to cowardly been fighting depression since 14 and now 22 it just got so much worse.

Exit bag is basically like u put a bag over ur head have gas flow via a tube and replace oxygen, u wont panic because these certain gasses don't make us air hungry and we think all is good until we pass out from lack of oxygen and then eventually we suffocate.

Ur not afraid of hanging ?
Like I know if done right ppls neck snaps but most hang both a belt or some random rope and like I feel that's rather suffocating and fighting idk I feel id panic too much save myself somehow or just be too agonised to try

Well, I care about you. You're welcome to message me anytime, if you need someone to listen.

Hanging has always been my go to method. I don't know much about the exit bag method. May I ask why you're saving for your funeral? Do you have family?

Oh and yes I got a mom I don't want her to pay for my funeral lmao

Atleast have that covered

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find the peace from suffering you search for, I wish you the best.