Story Planning to CTB soon by nitrogen

[Proto]

I can't keep going on anymore it's too hard, I'm getting more helpless every day and I'm too much of a burden on my father. Also they want to force me to work when I'm not ready to. I've had a rough start in life and a very unpleasant experience overall, trying to cope with manic depression struggling every step of the way I've been convinced there is no other option but to CTB. Mental illness is not taken seriously...

The only thing i have to do is plan when i finally get my nitrogen tank in a week I need to practice the routine test the scuba gear and the adapter if it's sealed tight then when I'm ready I'm going to shave my beard of and use the scuba setup. It has been brief but i felt very welcomed and at home here you guys are awesome and so caring.

Will keep you updated on the developments and when i exactly plan to CTB. Hopefully this thread will be useful to someone there who plans to do the same thing. I live in the Netherlands that's the only information i can disclose so maybe it will be in the news or something like the guy from the PDF death by nitrogen asphyxiation.

 

[Mr. Whippy]

I'm hoping you feel at peace with your decisions, friend. Wish you a peaceful ending.
I'm here for you if you need to talk.

 

[faust]

Oh, I see everything is getting real for you. Shaving beard is a good idea as I mentioned before, need to be very tight and hermetic. I guess the nitrogen tank will be the next week (don't know if they work on weekends), so as long as you are here, enjoy staying with us!
Btw I haven't yet found a job, need to do that asap.

 

[Deleted-User-0]

Hello mate! Really sorry to hear about your pain I also suffer from rapid cycle bipolar disorder the manic depression episodes are absolutely exhausting.
If you need to talk or anything I'm here for ya.
That mask is beautiful I can't help it

 

[ZardozOmega]

I wish you good luck.
Are you a neet? just curious.

 

[Proto]

I wish you good luck.
Are you a neet? just curious.

Kinda, I've been unemployed for a while after I graduated I was very unlucky with the jobs I got and had trouble holding one.

 

[selfhater]

i hope u find peace proto

 

[reapandsow918]

I hope it's just like falling asleep

 

[Proto]

I hope it's just like falling asleep

Should be gone within 15 seconds. Let's hope for the best.

 

[color_me_gone]

Well I believe you have picked a sound and peaceful method to ctb.
Sorry you have had such a shitty life so far.
Society knows so little about mental illness, and how difficult it can be.
This is going to be rough on your parents.
Do you have any siblings?
I wish you all the best, and hope you achieve your desired outcome, whatever that may be.

 

[Proto]

Well I believe you have picked a sound and peaceful method to ctb.
Sorry you have had such a shitty life so far.
Society knows so little about mental illness, and how difficult it can be.
This is going to be rough on your parents.
Do you have any siblings?
I wish you all the best, and hope you achieve your desired outcome, whatever that may be.

My mother is dead and my sister i don't know too well we didn't grow up together and she doesn't care. I wish for peace hopefully nothingness after i die.

 

[Steamm]

You dying today?

 

[color_me_gone]

hopefully nothingness after i die

that is what i hope for too
i'm pretty confident that is what it is
if you remember what it was like before you were born,
that is what it will be like after you die

 

[Proto]

You dying today?

No, my tank will arrive in 5 working days.

 

[Steamm]

No, my tank will arrive in 5 working days.

Keep us posted, maybe it's a good way to die. Btw your avatar remember me the feel when no gf

 

[AlreadyGone]

Good luck. I hope it works out for you.

 

[Indieblue]

I hope you find peace

 

[itsmeagain]

I can't keep going on anymore it's too hard, I'm getting more helpless every day and I'm too much of a burden on my father. Also they want to force me to work when I'm not ready to. I've had a rough start in life and a very unpleasant experience overall, trying to cope with manic depression struggling every step of the way I've been convinced there is no other option but to CTB. Mental illness is not taken seriously...

The only thing i have to do is plan when i finally get my nitrogen tank in a week I need to practice the routine test the scuba gear and the adapter if it's sealed tight then when I'm ready I'm going to shave my beard of and use the scuba setup. It has been brief but i felt very welcomed and at home here you guys are awesome and so caring.

Will keep you updated on the developments and when i exactly plan to CTB. Hopefully this thread will be useful to someone there who plans to do the same thing. I live in the Netherlands that's the only information i can disclose so maybe it will be in the news or something like the guy from the PDF death by nitrogen asphyxiation.

Darling, people are hoping you swing bythe chat, angel. I really hope you PM or swing by the gen. chat honey. Or if you want time to yourself, that's okay <3

 

[Proto]

My tank is here.

 

[faust]

My tank is here.

Oh, grand, everything is ready now!

 

[torentrap]

Hello, can you tell me about the parts you ordered? I'd like to order the same.
Sorry for not being caring & such atm, but there would be little point . I do hope you're not feeling too alone at least.
And how it should be set up etc, please do reply . Btw , I'm dutch too :)

 

[BrokenConk3r]

It was good talking to you mate, i wish you a peaceful diving.

 

[Proto]

Hello, can you tell me about the parts you ordered? I'd like to order the same.
Sorry for not being caring & such atm, but there would be little point . I do hope you're not feeling too alone at least.
And how it should be set up etc, please do reply . Btw , I'm dutch too :)

Hey there, you need at least 5 forum posts before i can PM you. Would be cool to talk to a fellow dutchie.

 

[Deleted member 14177]

Wishing you so much peace.

 

[torentrap]

Hey there, you need at least 5 forum posts before i can PM you. Would be cool to talk to a fellow dutchie.

That's a shame , maybe post a link to the items you bought? if that's allowed with forum rules. I would like to chat too :)

 

[Shakespear's Brother]

My tank is here.

Is there nitrogen in the tank? How much does it hold?

 

[Proto]

Is there nitrogen in the tank? How much does it hold?

5 liters at 200 bar so that's 1000 liters.

 

[torentrap]

Hi, proto , could you post exactly which items you bought ? That would be very helpful , thanks :)

 

[reapandsow918]

I hope you have a peaceful transition @Proto

 

[Deleted-User-0]

I wonder what happened to @Proto he hasn't been online for a while :(