girlzjustwant2vomit
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- Jan 16, 2026
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July 23rd, 2026
Idk what method for sure yet but I'll figure one out. Currently leaning towards fentanyl overdose but there are many complications with that.
Anyway
Burn and label cds and letters leave for the Netherlands a few days before
Day of eat 350 or less and don't drink a lot of water.
Make myself feel as horrible as possible. I lost all of my old pictures and messages so I can't go through those (I used to make myself read old messages as a punishment lol) but I'll find other ways. Current ideas-listen to songs that make me feel bad, sit in complete silence and just think/remind myself of bad things that I've done/other people have done to me, self harm (cutting with a razor blade), please give me more. I need to make sure that I don't back out at the last minute.
That night (probably at like 11pm) leave for the location. This is the evil and fucked up part of the plan.
So in the neighborhood lives this one guy that I met while back online. Am I doing this because of him? No not at all. Am I weaponizing my death to traumatize and humiliate him? Yes.
He sent me his address a while back as a joke. Unprompted too. So far away from me but doable. So here's the plan.
The method will impact this plan greatly so it's not all fully done yet, but here's the basics of it.
I'm going to have a backpack with some of the more sexual messages that he sent me printed out inside of it as well as multiple pictures of him with various things written on them. I barely have anything left for messages but I have a few that I know would absolutely destroy him if anybody ever saw.
I'll put a cd that I've burned for him and a letter in his mailbox as well as a general letter in my backpack and I'll have a picture of him on me somewhere, one in a more hidden place and one where it'll be likely to fall out. I'll also put some of the messages that I've printed and pictures on the ground next to be so that people will be sure to see.
Now for the death. I'll do whatever method late at night so that I'll be found in the morning. The neighborhood is almost all old people so nobody will be awake and out at that hour lol.
I'll be found on a Friday, so it'll fuck up the whole entire weekend and people will talking/thinking about me the whole time. Also this way people are more likely to be home so he probably will feel weird about going outside and being around them (his neighbors) after all of that lol.
In the note I'm gonna put for one of the lines (probably the last one) "Remember how you said that you wanted all women gone? Well consider me your first kill." Which will RUIN him like absolutely DESTROY everything in and about him.
He's already terrified of me because I've been stalking him for months after he blocked me. Lol what a loser, he's such a wreck.
Anyway, I've always wanted to weaponize my death. I just could never figure out how to. My family won't give a fuck so idc about them or harming them, they'll be praised and comforted regardless. But this guy that's known at his school for hating and harassing/harming women (I'm being so fr people from his school messaged me warning me because they saw me in his following list) supposedly driving me to suicide? Yeah, that'll ruin his life.
I've also been posting stuff relating to him online to freak him out. I know that he still views my profiles and that anything that feels like it could be even remotely related to him will scare him so badly. I have a code for this it's 70326202idt4uw2g4e which stands for 07/23/2026 I did this for us we're together forever. I'm planning on following his friends and posting something about this while on the way there, like close to right before probably.
Anyway lmk any ideas/suggestions! This plan could change if I find another way to weaponize my death. My deadline (lol) is this august. ;p
I also already did some other stuff to fuck with him. He deserves it trust. I could make another post about that if anybody's interested. It's all so complicated lol.
Idk what method for sure yet but I'll figure one out. Currently leaning towards fentanyl overdose but there are many complications with that.
Anyway
Burn and label cds and letters leave for the Netherlands a few days before
Day of eat 350 or less and don't drink a lot of water.
Make myself feel as horrible as possible. I lost all of my old pictures and messages so I can't go through those (I used to make myself read old messages as a punishment lol) but I'll find other ways. Current ideas-listen to songs that make me feel bad, sit in complete silence and just think/remind myself of bad things that I've done/other people have done to me, self harm (cutting with a razor blade), please give me more. I need to make sure that I don't back out at the last minute.
That night (probably at like 11pm) leave for the location. This is the evil and fucked up part of the plan.
So in the neighborhood lives this one guy that I met while back online. Am I doing this because of him? No not at all. Am I weaponizing my death to traumatize and humiliate him? Yes.
He sent me his address a while back as a joke. Unprompted too. So far away from me but doable. So here's the plan.
The method will impact this plan greatly so it's not all fully done yet, but here's the basics of it.
I'm going to have a backpack with some of the more sexual messages that he sent me printed out inside of it as well as multiple pictures of him with various things written on them. I barely have anything left for messages but I have a few that I know would absolutely destroy him if anybody ever saw.
I'll put a cd that I've burned for him and a letter in his mailbox as well as a general letter in my backpack and I'll have a picture of him on me somewhere, one in a more hidden place and one where it'll be likely to fall out. I'll also put some of the messages that I've printed and pictures on the ground next to be so that people will be sure to see.
Now for the death. I'll do whatever method late at night so that I'll be found in the morning. The neighborhood is almost all old people so nobody will be awake and out at that hour lol.
I'll be found on a Friday, so it'll fuck up the whole entire weekend and people will talking/thinking about me the whole time. Also this way people are more likely to be home so he probably will feel weird about going outside and being around them (his neighbors) after all of that lol.
In the note I'm gonna put for one of the lines (probably the last one) "Remember how you said that you wanted all women gone? Well consider me your first kill." Which will RUIN him like absolutely DESTROY everything in and about him.
He's already terrified of me because I've been stalking him for months after he blocked me. Lol what a loser, he's such a wreck.
Anyway, I've always wanted to weaponize my death. I just could never figure out how to. My family won't give a fuck so idc about them or harming them, they'll be praised and comforted regardless. But this guy that's known at his school for hating and harassing/harming women (I'm being so fr people from his school messaged me warning me because they saw me in his following list) supposedly driving me to suicide? Yeah, that'll ruin his life.
I've also been posting stuff relating to him online to freak him out. I know that he still views my profiles and that anything that feels like it could be even remotely related to him will scare him so badly. I have a code for this it's 70326202idt4uw2g4e which stands for 07/23/2026 I did this for us we're together forever. I'm planning on following his friends and posting something about this while on the way there, like close to right before probably.
Anyway lmk any ideas/suggestions! This plan could change if I find another way to weaponize my death. My deadline (lol) is this august. ;p
I also already did some other stuff to fuck with him. He deserves it trust. I could make another post about that if anybody's interested. It's all so complicated lol.
