Venting Physical disability makes me want to ctb

[knightxenon]

Hello i am 29 years old...i am suffering from autoimmune disease since i was 16..it has no cure and has left me disabled...i was bed ridden for last 3 years and now i had hip replacement and can walk..but my body pains so much... painkiller has been my daily routine since 7-8 years but now it dosent work..i am in constant pain...i am also jobless... supported by my father...he is old and when he is not anymore i dont know what will happen to me...if i cant work...i have no one else...i think that someday i will be all alone and i will ctb because i cant take this pain anymore... and also i wont be able to do normal jobs...i dont know what my future holds for me...glad i found this site bcs i have no one else to share... physical ilness is a pain in ass...

 

[FuneralCry]

It really is horrific how the human body can torture people to such great extents. It's such a cruel existence that brings people to the point of wishing to ctb and it must be really tiring and awful being in that situation. But I wish you the best.

 

[jodes2]

I'm sorry you're in pain I rely hugely on my gf and dad. When my dad's gone, I don't know what I'll do. Life is so hard with any disability but I don't envy you! I'm glad my hip doesn't play up much, I just have to battle my own mind for the time being

 

[Cryptonite]

I'm with you. We're on the same boat. My reason for CTB is a spinal disease that causes chronic pain. It also took everything away from my life. Physical disabilities ruin people's lives all around the world. In a strange way, that's OK, because we have the opportunity to escape from it all.