Philosophically...

[Richard Langford]

Have you always (or at least for some time) felt you'd inevitably arrive at this point in your life due to circumstances beyond your control? I've felt that way since 2016/17 that this would be the ultimate outcome regardless of what I did.

 

[ma0]

It's all my doing, everything could've been prevented but I decided to be an idiot :/

 

[eeah]

ive always figured id end up here but i wouldnt say because its beyond my control exactly. like, i think im just fundamentally deficient as a person. maybe i dont control being a shitty failure of a person but i think at the end of the day i could be better im just not

 

[TheHolySword]

At some point, yes, I knew I was going to kill myself. I tried to ignored. Tried to get help, tried to be better, tried to be happy. Just never happened. I made a lot of mistakes that ended me up here, and I've done a lot wrong to force myself to get here. I knew one way or another it was gonna happen. Now I'm here and I'm in control of my own destiny and I'm going to die