do you feel like that your personality changed at some point in your life due to a particular external event(s)? Do you think you would evolve to the same person you are now even if those events didnt happen?
I once was an extroverted child, happy and friendly. upto 13 years old - when puberty hit drastic change happen. there were 2 independent events (my attitudes) separated by few months that others made use to bully me (psychological abuse, name calling), and these two events happened in two different friend circles. these durated for like 3 years. those were the most unhappy times of my life and feel they marked me for life. i was even afraid to go school.
Had severe OCD (i think after first event) (undiagnosed), which decreased in severity as years passed by, to practically cured after 7 years.
As defense mechanism, I developed a cold personality, cant develop intimacy or love, avoidant behavior.
I feel I can blame that everything snowballed on those 2 events that lead to my personality today. but on deeper analysis probably if not those two events, other similar events would happen anyway, in the end due to my innate personality to begin with.
my ideas, life views, ambitions, dont match with society, and probably thats the true reason why i ended up in this repressed state - genetics response to environment.
I once was an extroverted child, happy and friendly. upto 13 years old - when puberty hit drastic change happen. there were 2 independent events (my attitudes) separated by few months that others made use to bully me (psychological abuse, name calling), and these two events happened in two different friend circles. these durated for like 3 years. those were the most unhappy times of my life and feel they marked me for life. i was even afraid to go school.
Had severe OCD (i think after first event) (undiagnosed), which decreased in severity as years passed by, to practically cured after 7 years.
As defense mechanism, I developed a cold personality, cant develop intimacy or love, avoidant behavior.
I feel I can blame that everything snowballed on those 2 events that lead to my personality today. but on deeper analysis probably if not those two events, other similar events would happen anyway, in the end due to my innate personality to begin with.
my ideas, life views, ambitions, dont match with society, and probably thats the true reason why i ended up in this repressed state - genetics response to environment.
