Okokaykay
Member
- May 10, 2023
- 98
I know that no one can tell me its okay to self harm- Obviously thats impossible and I'm surrounded by good people, but I feel like I'm going insane. I'm so torn between guilt and wanting to do something irreversible to myself. I can't take this feeling anymore. I want everything to end, I want to make everyone hate me so I can self destruct in peace. I want someone to tell me that it's okay if I hurt myself.
I'm constantly in such a weird limbo where I have all the support and care a person could ask for, and yet I'm still overwhelmed and struggling with daily tasks. I can't do much beyond my bedroom without panicking. I can't make friends or feel motivated to maintain connections- I'm pathetic and selfish and don't deserve to live.
I have everything I could have wanted years ago and yet I'm still unhappy. I still feel so out of place and like I wasn't made to exist.
Its been 6 weeks since I last hurt myself and it's only getting harder.
I'm supposed to be getting better, but I don't want to be here at all. I am so selfish.
I'm constantly in such a weird limbo where I have all the support and care a person could ask for, and yet I'm still overwhelmed and struggling with daily tasks. I can't do much beyond my bedroom without panicking. I can't make friends or feel motivated to maintain connections- I'm pathetic and selfish and don't deserve to live.
I have everything I could have wanted years ago and yet I'm still unhappy. I still feel so out of place and like I wasn't made to exist.
Its been 6 weeks since I last hurt myself and it's only getting harder.
I'm supposed to be getting better, but I don't want to be here at all. I am so selfish.