Discussion People who survived their attempts, what was life like afterwards?

[Meimi18]

What method? What were family reactions like? Friends? What about work and school? Any health complications?

 

[hikikomorizombie]

2 attempts, involuntarily committed to the psych ward both times. relationship w my mom decreased due to how she handled them, no friends to react to it, & no adverse effects :p when i was in school no1 mentioned it when i went back. when i worked no1 mentioned it when i went back either.

 

[Abyssal]

I was lucky enough not to have been forced into the psychiatric ward even when hospitalized and telling the truth. My family knew and cared, I guess it's the ideal outcome.

What was it like? Temporary push to live. Honeymoon effect I guess, but not always. Sometimes nothing got done and I'd just have to endure that was stuck in the same torturous life.

 

[goblin99]

My mom pretended to care until I got out of the psych ward. After that I didn't hear from her for about a year and a half.
My dad didn't understand, and to this day I still don't think he does despite him being a big portion of the reason why I tried.
My sister had flown out to be there when I was in the hospital. She was furious when I begged the psych ward staff to let me go home. She blocked me on all platforms and didn't talk to me until last year (about 3 ish years.)
My housemates were all mad at me and upset that I did it. None of them came to see me while I was in the hospital despite me begging them to. Now one of them gets angry at me if I bring it up because it was "traumatizing for her" (as if it wasn't for me, too???) She also won't allow me to take antidepressants because according to her they made me attempt.
No real health complications. However, I no longer have an addiction to Monsters because I drank one while taking the pills and now the texture of a Monster makes me gag. So that's good, I guess. I also can't really take any pills now without gagging unless I have an entire mouthful of water.

 

[stilhavinightmares]

I destroyed my family and they don't even know all of it. I got better for a bit then got worse again. I'm still here because I love my family, but I don't want to be. I wish I died with the first attempt so I wouldn't have to have suffered anymore, strengthen relationships with people, or been present for my family's suffering at my own hands. I just keep hurting them more and more. Just want to take care of myself and what I've always knew I needed, so I would say I'm in a hell of sorts.

Just my experience though. I assume you'll get a lot similar to me due to the site you're on, but I know A LOT of people's lives get better and suicidal thoughts get better and they go on and live happily…or at least not suicidal.

 

[UKscotty]

Never had a good experience.

Being shunned and seen as a liability to be around I noticed several times.

Now days I keep quiet about such things, if anyone finds out its always a problem and nothing good comes of it.

 

[indosoon]

2017, I tried two times. Both with benzos. The first time I was sleep as heck, decided to go to bathroom in the middle of the night. Getting back I fell off and broke one of my tooth. Since then I keep thinking about it but never tried again. SN may work. I hope so. In my country it's easy and cheap.

 

[UKscotty]

2017, I tried two times. Both with benzos. The first time I was sleep as heck, decided to go to bathroom in the middle of the night. Getting back I fell off and broke one of my tooth. Since then I keep thinking about it but never tried again. SN may work. I hope so. In my country it's easy and cheap.

SN is easy and cheap but it's also very slow. The main problem is the SI and regret kicking in after drinking it.

Each to their own but drinking something feels too slow to me.

 

[indosoon]

SN is easy and cheap but it's also very slow. The main problem is the SI and regret kicking in after drinking it.

Each to their own but drinking something feels too slow to me.i m

SN is easy and cheap but it's also very slow. The main problem is the SI and regret kicking in after drinking it.

Each to their own but drinking something feels too slow to me.

I might try it with weed and benzos

 

[pasho25000]

I might try it with weed and benzos

how much sn did you take? how long did you fast? did you vomit? did tou take an
antiemetic?

 

[pasho25000]

op

 

[BuckyDee2036]

I was 17 and my first actual attempt at suicide was swallowing a whole bottle of pills. I was throwing up for 13 hours and I never called or texted anyone. I went to work the next day like nothing happened.

 

[divinemistress36]

2017, I tried two times. Both with benzos. The first time I was sleep as heck, decided to go to bathroom in the middle of the night. Getting back I fell off and broke one of my tooth. Since then I keep thinking about it but never tried again. SN may work. I hope so. In my country it's easy and cheap.

I wish benzos were deadly

 

[Save_Me_Mind]

Depression and constant state of forever being alone. Not a damn person will see you, you're a ghost. A constant reminder that you will never be loved or cared and any interaction will always forever be fake. And you get to the point where you don't even understand your mind or beliefs that are being thought because all is contradicted 24/7. So in a simple answer... Torture

 

[Lily_bun]

I had two attempts a little over a year ago both using Benadryl I was interrupted due to friends calling an ambulance so I was sent to the ER. When I was in the ER had two higher ups harass me in the hospital to the point where the nurse was threatening to kick them out so they left. After that I was sent to a psych ward where I was there for over a month it was a truly awful place, you are treated like an animal the whole time there I just felt even more trapped being there. After that everyone just tried to act like nothing happened.

 

[Doemu]

2017, I tried two times. Both with benzos. The first time I was sleep as heck, decided to go to bathroom in the middle of the night. Getting back I fell off and broke one of my tooth. Since then I keep thinking about it but never tried again. SN may work. I hope so. In my country it's easy and cheap.

Wich country?
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I tried to jump over the window when I was 11, but my mother found me and stopped me.

I don't know if that counts like an a real attempt.

What happened after, is that my mother leaved me in a forest. Obviously she wanted that I die "lost" and avoid revealing I was killing my self cause I was forced to be alone.

I had to fake that everything was fine when I camed back home to not happen again.

 

[restless.dreams]

Last time, I downed a bottle of SSRIs and about a pint of liquor. It was impulsive and not something I would recommend. I vomited a lot, was taken to the hospital, and ended up in the psych ward for about a week. No lasting physical effects, though.

I told my work that I had a medical emergency, and they didn't give me a hard time. My family was very upset and I lost two close friends. Not a fun time overall.

 

[HereTomorrow]

Partial suspended hanging from the door with cheap rope, struggling to breathe, somewhat dizzy, and vision went 80% black. Backed out before I passed out and quickly went back to sleep. No permanent injuries, maybe neck strain from the rope for a few days and mental fog for a few weeks.

I went to school the next day, nobody cared or noticed because I looked "normal". Never told anyone for years I did it because I didn't want to be hospitalized again (had suicidal thoughts in the past). When I finally did tell my friends about my struggles, my friendships slowly started to crumble. I wish I never disclosed it at all.