Discussion People who failed their suicide attempt(s) what happened afterwards?

[UninformedLover]

Just curious.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

A lot of "care," i.e. filling out surveys and getting my blood pressure read.

 

[Forveleth]

The first time I tried with chloroform. I had vertigo for three days straight and felt like shit but that was all. The second time was partial and absolutely nothing happened. I put everything away and watched YouTube until my partner came home.

 

[Fresh Soju]

I told everyone from family and friends to healthcare practitioners like a psychs and nurses and... nothing happened.
People were just curious about it at most and the HCPs asked which drugs I took in specific and if I had some side effects still, but that's it.

 

[interna]

nothing really. first attempt got hospitalized and had my stomach pumped, also went on meds that made it all worse and developed psychosis. second attempt no one knows.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

I told everyone from family and friends to healthcare practitioners

I told a therapist that I'd been experimenting with partial hanging and got sent to the funny farm for almost a week

 

[overmorrow]

grippy socks vacation for a few months

 

[mold]

I tried hanging myself with an extension cord in my college dorm many years ago when my roommates were out partying, and I genuinely couldn't tell you what happened between me about to do it to me waking up on the floor the next morning. What I think happened is that my brain shut itself down and made me faint to protect me? I genuinely don't know or remember but I do remember waking up on the floor with the sun shining in my face. Was v awkward.

 

[Fresh Soju]

I tried hanging myself with an extension cord in my college dorm many years ago when my roommates were out partying, and I genuinely couldn't tell you what happened between me about to do it to me waking up on the floor the next morning. What I think happened is that my brain shut itself down and made me faint to protect me? I genuinely don't know or remember but I do remember waking up on the floor with the sun shining in my face. Was v awkward.

Weird question, but how did the sun feel like when you woke up? Did it feel surreal?
Also nice Jinx avatar!

 

[mold]

Weird question, but how did the sun feel like when you woke up? Did it feel surreal?
Also nice Jinx avatar!

Hmm, it's been a while but I remember it being directly in my eyes since I was facing the window. I saw the extension cord in front of my eyes on the carpet and I knew I failed when I opened my eyes immediately. It felt awful, I'm just glad my roommates didn't come back that morning tbh.

Also thank you!

 

[PartyDress]

I tried to use partial suspension. This was over a decade ago. I did pass out. Woke up somehow and took the rope off. There was a bruise around my neck, and I'm black, so it was pronounced. I think I went about my day. Was too emotionally spent to try again.

 

[wasphyso]

The police took me to the hospital. They checked me over, then I talked to a lady for an hour and got sent home. I got McDonald's on my way home.

 

[NotSoEnchanted]

I ended up in the ER, then the psych ward. All attempts after the age of 18 left me with medical bills too. My insurance thankfully covered the brunt of them, but I still owe quite a bit, especially for someone on disability with a fixed income such as myself

 

[ShadowedChaos]

I had too many and but almost everytime I got took to the ER then a psych ward when I was younger I was in residentials and "long-term treatment facilities". There were times I had to wait to regain the ability to walk, have any sort of hand eye coordination, balance, or even at points to clearly form sentences at all. Most of it truly is just waiting just sitting with you and your thoughts after it all a piece of me died each time even if I went into actual events it's just sad I don't know how at some points I did what I did or survived what I had it's a gift and a curse but I still look at life differently so its just hard to really feel I don't it's always pretty soul crushing like crying yourself back to sleep or something realizing you failed and your back where you are especially if you end up in hospitals or such. Especially the pain either from the failed attempt plus the weight of everything setting in. I have quite a few attempts all with they're own story some way more intense than others and for some reason now I just can't do it as impulsively as much as I could when I was younger even though I'm more sure of my methods now but as all things I never know what could happen maybe I need to find that way again. After those attempts I guess out of everything the world feels dark afterwards, everything just feels different and it shows all the people around you for who they really are. Your views change in some ways about something they have to. Accepting death and expecting it, welcoming it, and in the end to still be here in something you so badly wanted to escape or say goodbye to it feels like living on borrowed time. I feel like the world is not meant for me and in the end I can always just CTB and say goodbye for that last time part of me isn't sure what all I learned I definitely grew a lot from the kid I was but its hard to know if completely better or worse. I don't know there's a lot of things to feel about it in the end of the day everyones relationship with their own mortality and their decision with what they do with that is unique so it sucks when you see yourself deciding to throw that away and then have to still get up and do whatever you have to the next day or after you recover.

 

[attackingvertical]

The first time I took like 11 zoloft pills in highschool. I was young and had no idea how anything worked. I ended up scaring myself and calling for help. Then ended up basically high for several hours and stayed under watch at the hospital till my parents brought me home.

The second time I took a ton of lexapro in my college dorm. I threw up (and other things ), and my heart was racing/hurt, and I was hyperventilating. My whole body was twitching and shaking and my limbs kept jerking around. I finally got better after a few hours and just went to bed. Told people I was just sick.

Moral of the story is don't try to OD on SSRIs. You'll probably just get serotonin syndrome and it sucks.

 

[bananaolympus]

Jumped not high enough but i was going to die but i was saved by a fluke, years of pt and surgeries since i busted my legs and jaw wheelchair bounded for more than 3 years, dental implants, titanium plate in my jaw and femurs a hip needed replacement, rn doing better some days i get nerve and muscle pain good thing my pain tolerance is high but yeah quality of life is worse but i had very bad ocd don't know what happened but the hit lowered the mfer like a 90% guess i traded my physical health for my mental health