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ralphnol

ralphnol

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Aug 25, 2019
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I feel like being looked on everytime I am on the street. Im pretty much a normal guy. I dont have a face tattoo. I notice mostly when I am driving. People are always on the sidewalk. Looking at you. I am from Brazil, I think there´s something with that. Even writing it I feel that it wont be quite recognized. I feel that I am watched, not all the time, but a lot when I go out. People always looking at you weird. I guess I may be a bit paranoid (more like I dont like being looked on the street) but you feel that way or similar?
 
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Rachel74

Rachel74

Enlightened
Sep 7, 2019
1,716
I'm the same but mine is due to paranoia. I stop looking at people now as I was freaking myself out.
 
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DownFall

Member
Aug 23, 2019
13
I feel like people are looking at me and judging me left and right. It's hell and gives me panic attacks. That's why I prefer to stay silent and alone.
 
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DoomedxFromBirth

DoomedxFromBirth

Waste of Agony
Jun 1, 2019
139
It's gotten to the point now that I KNOW people are looking at me. Before it used to give me panic attacks, now Im just such an angry numb person that I zone it out. Also I have piercings, tattoos, different color hair so im sure that helps. I smile really big at kids sometimes which im sure scares them.
 
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Sunset Limited

Sunset Limited

I believe in Sunset Limited
Jul 29, 2019
1,228
I'm having the same thing. If you don't look at people, you don't see them looking at you. In fact, this awareness creates a paranoia.
 
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cryptic_cynic

cryptic_cynic

Degenerate
Jul 8, 2019
129
I feel that way too. I don't know if I'm just paranoid or what, but I hate it. I do stand out somewhat, since I'm not some lily white American like most people around me.
But either way, I try to stop looking at others and just ignore them as much as possible. I hate people anyway.
 
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Tabbyql

Tabbyql

Chronic people pleaser
Mar 13, 2019
282
I empathise completely, that's one the main reasons I avoid going out. Everyone staring, whispering and laughing at me. I never know if it's paranoia or real. It freaks me out, and I start to get panic attack.
 
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SS02

Member
Sep 7, 2019
10
Sometimes. But I figure it is because I'm stunningly beautiful. Lol.
 
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woxihuanni

woxihuanni

Illuminated
Aug 19, 2019
3,299
Nah, I wouldn't notice even if someone is actually looking at me. I also wouldn't notice if entire streets disappeared. I'm completely locked up trying to solve an unsolvable problem in my head. Also don't even look at people's faces for reactions when I am 'on stage' presenting anything.
 
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First loss

First loss

Specialist
Jan 28, 2019
393
I used to be uncomfortable with that. Now I just do not give a fuck. They can go and fuck themselves for all I care.
 
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nothingleft

nothingleft

Member
Sep 1, 2019
91
When you're paranoid, your mind will work frantically to confirm what it already holds to be true.

I used to have panic attacks going to the store, and I was convinced everyone was staring at me. But once the panic had subsided, I looked at the situation logically and realized there was no way every single person had some random animosity towards me, a stranger. The human mind is pretty extraordinary in its ability to cloud our perceptions and make connections that don't really exist.
 
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DeathImminent

DeathImminent

Experienced
Aug 9, 2019
203
I feel like being looked on everytime I am on the street. Im pretty much a normal guy. I dont have a face tattoo. I notice mostly when I am driving. People are always on the sidewalk. Looking at you. I am from Brazil, I think there´s something with that. Even writing it I feel that it wont be quite recognized. I feel that I am watched, not all the time, but a lot when I go out. People always looking at you weird. I guess I may be a bit paranoid (more like I dont like being looked on the street) but you feel that way or similar?
sounds like mild paranoia to me
 
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Jiren

Jiren

Member
Sep 9, 2019
5
I always wonder what they are thinking about me
 
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cherub

cherub

Fvcking Loser
Jan 27, 2019
147
Yes. This is why I hardly leave my house anymore. Although, I'm sure the isolation and lack of human interaction only increases the paranoia and perpetuates the cycle.
 
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CFLoser

CFLoser

I fcking hate myself
Dec 5, 2018
611
If you think they all hate you, then u just being in there presence to spite them is kind of fun.
 
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azucaramargo

azucaramargo

Enlightened
Sep 16, 2018
1,010
I love being looked at! Dammit, I hate getting older.
 
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bunny

bunny

保管
Oct 3, 2018
364
eyes on me scare me so much. i just find myself being a target.
 
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peacefully31425

peacefully31425

Dirtbag
Aug 28, 2018
162
Yes. I'm paranoid and I hate going outside.
 
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Susannah

Susannah

Mage
Jul 2, 2018
530
Nah, I wouldn't notice even if someone is actually looking at me. I also wouldn't notice if entire streets disappeared. I'm completely locked up trying to solve an unsolvable problem in my head. Also don't even look at people's faces for reactions when I am 'on stage' presenting anything.
Almost everybody look at each other. There's many reason why, of course. But I think we all search for some kind of normal behavior, to adapt better. People are different (thank God), and most of us embrace this. I also look myself in when I'm out. I try to walk as I own the world, I listen to "funny" music, that makes me smile.
 
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woxihuanni

woxihuanni

Illuminated
Aug 19, 2019
3,299
Almost everybody look at each other. There's many reason why, of course. But I think we all search for some kind of normal behavior, to adapt better. People are different (thank God), and most of us embrace this. I also look myself in when I'm out. I try to walk as I own the world, I listen to "funny" music, that makes me smile.

Yeah sure I look at people for various reasons, just don't think about who's looking at me. Maybe it's because I'm secure deep down, despite a trillion superficial insecurities.
 
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Stan

Stan

Factoid Hunter
Aug 29, 2019
2,589
I think one of the reasons I don't go out anymore with the people I would socialise is that they make a comment, some may think its kindness but it hits home. I used to present myself quite well, well groomed, clean and decent clothes. Now I don't, I can't be bothered.
 
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blanketyblk

blanketyblk

Mage
Jun 9, 2019
574
I'm always getting stared at. i use to hate hate hate it. i'm 6'1 female i have very long bright blue hair. so i stand out like a torch where i walk.. i get so self conscious over it. to the point where many hands start to sweat and i get nervous. my voice starts to break and i general become a nervous wreck. I've always been like this and i think it's just from trauma at school and I've never been able to shake it. at school. i was always pointed to a laughed at so. yeah i guess I'm still got a school girl mindset. frigging sucks
 
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azucaramargo

azucaramargo

Enlightened
Sep 16, 2018
1,010
I'm always getting stared at. i use to hate hate hate it. i'm 6'1 female i have very long bright blue hair. so i stand out like a torch where i walk.. i get so self conscious over it. to the point where many hands start to sweat and i get nervous. my voice starts to break and i general become a nervous wreck. I've always been like this and i think it's just from trauma at school and I've never been able to shake it. at school. i was always pointed to a laughed at so. yeah i guess I'm still got a school girl mindset. frigging sucks
Sounds very much like Katharine Hepburn--one of the great beauties of our time. She apparently developed a phobia of eating in public. Like you, she was so striking that she could not escape attention.
 
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LastFlowers

the haru that can read
Apr 27, 2019
2,171
I feel like being looked on everytime I am on the street. Im pretty much a normal guy. I dont have a face tattoo. I notice mostly when I am driving. People are always on the sidewalk. Looking at you. I am from Brazil, I think there´s something with that. Even writing it I feel that it wont be quite recognized. I feel that I am watched, not all the time, but a lot when I go out. People always looking at you weird. I guess I may be a bit paranoid (more like I dont like being looked on the street) but you feel that way or similar?
I'm either invisible to people or they laugh at my expense due to my looks.
 
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snowman626

Mage
Jan 28, 2019
543
I hate when walking and a car comes towards me and i cant see the driver due to reflection but i can feel them looking at me.

I also hate when im the only one waiting for the bus and as the bus approaches i find it awkward not knowing whether to look at the driver/bus/ground/sky as it comes closer and closer. So i keep looking around randomly like im retarded which makes me feel even more awkward
 
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blanketyblk

Mage
Jun 9, 2019
574
Sounds very much like Katharine Hepburn--one of the great beauties of our time. She apparently developed a phobia of eating in public. Like you, she was so striking that she could not escape attention.
I remember reading about that happening with her. its amazing how it can effect people. to be so beautiful and yet still so insecure. we are all broken in little tiny ways i guess.

I saw the other day on Netflix a movie called 'Tall girl' it's mostly crap. but it does deal with some of the issues that being a tall girl at school is like. except i didn't get a happy ending :-)
 
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mathieu

mathieu

Enlightened
Jun 5, 2019
1,091
I feel that way when I'm really self-conscious and unused to being in public.