People here on Sanctioned Suicide listened to me while everyone else in my life dismissed my mental health problems

[FireFox]

Thank you Sanctioned Suicide for all the times you listened to me and tried to help me with my problems. I am finally at the end of my life and every single fight I had within me is now gone. My current problems show no signs of ever getting resolved.

I would have never ended up here if people in my life took me seriously for all the times I opened up about being depressed, anxious and struggling to cope. I reached out people just dismissed my feelings, treated me like an inconvenience to their normal lives and judged me. NHS mental health services in my area being inaccessible to me removed any chance i had of ever having recovery.

My family set me up for failure for teaching me "everything happens for a reason" and never taught me how to cope if things go wrong. All I ever known is self-harming to numb the pain because I was never taught how to healthily contain my emotions or calm myself. My family dont believe in therapists or even anti depressants and discouraged me from using these things. CBD helped me but family didn't want me taking that either.

Everywhere I went i was just misunderstood and told to "relax" and how I have my "whole life ahead of me"

I finally got tired of it all nothing ever working out and just obstacle after obstacle after obstacle. I really wanted to live but the world kept putting obstacles in my way whenever something good happens for me. No more i am done with game called life.

I don't understand how people say life is wonderful thing we should be grateful for. Why I should I be grateful for something I didn't ask for. Life is only worth it if you got whatever you wanted ie the person you love chose you or achieving your life's goals

I will never experience a man choosing me for once and wanting me, I will never finish my degree because of the university tuition fees office being difficult and unhelpful and I will never be happy again.

For me suicide is the only escape and control I have. I feel so alone

 

[ma0]

Whenever anyone says "Life is so beautiful and worth living!" as a reason not to CTB I always get so irrationally irritated. People who say this are clearly just using their privileged lives as baselines for life, which not everyone is as lucky to experience. It's incredibly ignorant and dissmissive of people who have actually suffered and have been failed by life.

 

[Dingo67]

I can relate to never being chosen by anyone. Just such an awful feeling thinking about it. Life is so unfair and cruel to us all.