people genuinely do not care

[losergirl]

its like everywhere i turn to just have small talk or even have a bond with someone i can just see it in their faces that they simply just do not care. obviously i know people have lives that they need to tend to and focus on. but clearly when you simply want a friend or want to share your thoughts with someone they just simply dont give a fuck.

it makes me want to shut myself in even more than i am now. im on a downwards spiral yet again. no job, no friends, no money. i am absolutely alone.

i really want to leave. i just do not have the motivation to get it done. i wish something bad would just happen to me so i can have a even bigger excuse to just do it. to everyone else that happens to see me irl they think im "stable enough" so they dont check in like they would with other people. i try my very hardest not to be a burden and even so, nobody wants to be my friend. im getting angrier and angrier day by day. i take my meds, i journal, i TRY to talk things over with family or friends but yet again im stuck in this loop.

my mind is just broken

im a 21 year old girl. i should be out with friends, indulging in my hobbies, going to college, working a job. but i have NOTHING. i cant function like a normal human being. even if im doing the "best i can" it is NOT enough. i get so jealous seeing people on social media my age or even younger getting their happy endings. and god i just want to slit my throat open. its not their faults for having a good life, i just wish mine was good. its pathetic because im so mentally disturbed but my life isnt even as bad as others and obviously i cant compare my situation to others but im empathetic because i hate myself and i pour love into others that i wish i could hear from my peers.

why am i even here

i want my life to come to an end now and fast

im not even gonna bother reading over this so sorry for the ramble

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

i feel the same. i try to reach out to others to hang out but everyone's busy or cant or says they are interested but then never plans it or tries to actaully set it up. but then i see them hanging out with others a bunch. i try not to judge them or think that they were lying to me but i feel so alone hearing them hangout without me especially because i also never get to hang out with them. if they hung out without me but then had time for me other times i wouldnt mind. but this feels lonely. i dont want to blame them or think they are doing it on purpose. but i do hate how i feel so alone like this.

i hope you find connection because no one should be alone like this.

 

[losergirl]

i feel the same. i try to reach out to others to hang out but everyone's busy or cant or says they are interested but then never plans it or tries to actaully set it up. but then i see them hanging out with others a bunch. i try not to judge them or think that they were lying to me but i feel so alone hearing them hangout without me especially because i also never get to hang out with them. if they hung out without me but then had time for me other times i wouldnt mind. but this feels lonely. i dont want to blame them or think they are doing it on purpose. but i do hate how i feel so alone like this.

yeah i know exactly how that feels, i was excluded like this all of my school years and now that im an adult i have no one and even my online friends have ditched me and its seriously so tiring. i dont even try to conversate with people my age anymore to be friends because i already know they will never care to bond with me lol

 

[NihilDoll]

Even if you might not be reading this, i think it warrants saying something regardless.

I rambled about it in another thread already, society is just fucked. And in large parts, it's by design.
Especially for younger generations, the overall system, be it school, work, housing, whatever it is, is just downright hostile.
And a hostile environment simply isn't a good foundation for healthy social interactions.

We're living through one "once in a lifetime" event after the other. Society is crumbling, wars are treated like sports games, money has become fake and so have people.

You're certainly not alone in this. And it's not just a handful of people. It's entire fucking generations.
It's a systemic mill engineered to grind you to dust if you don't sell your soul to it.
And that you're writing this here is a good indicator that you still got yours.
You have a right to be angry. Always keep that in mind. Shit's simply fucked, and it's not your fault.

Whatever you decide to do, i wish you the best of luck!

 

[Aflame5926]

i think with the internet i do think connecting with people got so much harder tho.

for me i can hardly surivive social activity at all cause of tism.
and even making new connection tism stand in the way.

communicated got rlly hard the last few years. its little bit fine to put a mask on but thats it.

society is just that F"ed.

EDIT: i do think a lot of people are social awkward aswell which is also not helping

 

[dai153207]

I'm so sorry to hear abt what you're going through i think i used to be w someone who was exactly like this, i think it's fucking inhumane for ppl not care and the fact you're still empathetic and do care about ppl shows that u have more humanity and decency in you then they ever could it's crazy how it's always the really nice and good ppl who are the ones to be secluded and suffering alone cuz we live in a messed up but you should please just know that you're definitely not alone (I'd love to talk whenever you'd like to)

 

[nails]

i relate a lot. i've been struggling with loneliness for a while and it all feels very pointless. it's to a point where i just get angry after hearing people casually talk about hanging out with their friends or seeing people out together. even seeing two individuals talking online is a bit infuriating. there's no point in seeing another day if you're just alone all the time, it's pointless and dull. i am constantly trying, but as you said, no one really cares. every attempt at connection just leads to me looking pathetic and further proving my point. humans are evil and fake, no one genuinely cares.
i'm sorry you have to struggle with this as well and i hope you can find some sort of peace or relief.

 

[welcome]

That's why I stopped trying to make friends. Every person I've ever talked to acts like they care talking to me for about 20 minutes before someone else more important hits them up. Any time I have actually tried to have a friend it's like I'm a burden to them or something. I get attached to people then just see that they never really cared and really would not care if I was dead. But for them the immature losers who ignore them and 'leave them on delivered' for no other reason but an ego boost are much more awesome people. Even in the rare event where I have had a conversation with anyone in real life, I knew in a few minutes none of it will matter or culminate in anything and nor do they really care. Every time I used to have a friend I would try to understand that they have a life too, but are we really friends if you can't even say hi to me once a month without myself having to remind you of my existence. I even deleted all social media and they said "how will I have contact with you now?" If you really were my friend then you'd find out a way instead of do the same things as everyone else out of convenience because truly you do not care

 

[Moe_Redfath]

its like everywhere i turn to just have small talk or even have a bond with someone i can just see it in their faces that they simply just do not care. obviously i know people have lives that they need to tend to and focus on. but clearly when you simply want a friend or want to share your thoughts with someone they just simply dont give a fuck.

it makes me want to shut myself in even more than i am now. im on a downwards spiral yet again. no job, no friends, no money. i am absolutely alone.

i really want to leave. i just do not have the motivation to get it done. i wish something bad would just happen to me so i can have a even bigger excuse to just do it. to everyone else that happens to see me irl they think im "stable enough" so they dont check in like they would with other people. i try my very hardest not to be a burden and even so, nobody wants to be my friend. im getting angrier and angrier day by day. i take my meds, i journal, i TRY to talk things over with family or friends but yet again im stuck in this loop.

my mind is just broken

im a 21 year old girl. i should be out with friends, indulging in my hobbies, going to college, working a job. but i have NOTHING. i cant function like a normal human being. even if im doing the "best i can" it is NOT enough. i get so jealous seeing people on social media my age or even younger getting their happy endings. and god i just want to slit my throat open. its not their faults for having a good life, i just wish mine was good. its pathetic because im so mentally disturbed but my life isnt even as bad as others and obviously i cant compare my situation to others but im empathetic because i hate myself and i pour love into others that i wish i could hear from my peers.

why am i even here

i want my life to come to an end now and fast

im not even gonna bother reading over this so sorry for the ramble

I'm sorry you are alone and have no one to talk to. It's worse yet when those you do have to talk to, don't seem to care. Everyone deserves to be happy and not feel so isolated and stuck. I'm in my early twenties as well, and we have a long time to go, a lot of time to change and grow into who we want to be. And along the way we can make and find our own "happy endings". You deserve to be listened to and acknowledged, as does anyone, because you are your own special person. There's only ever going to be one of you, and you are it. I'm here if you want to talk about something. I wish you the best.

 

[morina]

its like everywhere i turn to just have small talk or even have a bond with someone i can just see it in their faces that they simply just do not care. obviously i know people have lives that they need to tend to and focus on. but clearly when you simply want a friend or want to share your thoughts with someone they just simply dont give a fuck.

it makes me want to shut myself in even more than i am now. im on a downwards spiral yet again. no job, no friends, no money. i am absolutely alone.

i really want to leave. i just do not have the motivation to get it done. i wish something bad would just happen to me so i can have a even bigger excuse to just do it. to everyone else that happens to see me irl they think im "stable enough" so they dont check in like they would with other people. i try my very hardest not to be a burden and even so, nobody wants to be my friend. im getting angrier and angrier day by day. i take my meds, i journal, i TRY to talk things over with family or friends but yet again im stuck in this loop.

my mind is just broken

im a 21 year old girl. i should be out with friends, indulging in my hobbies, going to college, working a job. but i have NOTHING. i cant function like a normal human being. even if im doing the "best i can" it is NOT enough. i get so jealous seeing people on social media my age or even younger getting their happy endings. and god i just want to slit my throat open. its not their faults for having a good life, i just wish mine was good. its pathetic because im so mentally disturbed but my life isnt even as bad as others and obviously i cant compare my situation to others but im empathetic because i hate myself and i pour love into others that i wish i could hear from my peers.

why am i even here

i want my life to come to an end now and fast

im not even gonna bother reading over this so sorry for the ramble

I feel similar. In my early 20s now, going to uni, but what else? The only places I am at are home and uni, and there I barely even speak to people. It's not even like I get bullied or people are unfriendly, I just can't make it to a stage beyond surface-level conversations about course subjects. But how would I even get closer to people if I don't have hobbies or passions for anything and never had them? Even if I wanted to, I couldn't blame them for not wanting to hang out with me, I wouldn't even hang out with myself. The only "friend" I made at uni, the only "friend" I have had in years, abused me, so I had to cut off contact. Wasn't like he really cared about me anyway, though.

For online friends, I feel like they are just annoyed by me. I have to write them, almost never do they shoot me a random message. Sometimes they don't even reply to what I say. It's seriously so tiring. Why even still try making friends? There was enough trying out; it just won't happen, ever.

I am sorry you have to feel this way. And I think it's amazing that after all that, you still direct hate only onto yourself and try your best not to inconvenience others. I wish you the best and that you may someday find a circle you can fit in, if you decide to live – or serenity if you decide not to.