marcy2022
Student
- Oct 19, 2022
- 151
Hi,
I'm new to this forum.
I'm not sure which prefix applies here, story or help. Its sort of both.
I think I've been here before but I could be wrong. (forgive me if posting this is against the websites rules). Previously I visited a website with the same name with .com at the end. I tried to find it but it doesn't work and while searching around a bit this website came up.
Previously I tried with petothal / thiopentone sodium. I don't remember all the details well because since I've recovered or partly recovered I've been forgetting somethings and certain things from that time. I don't know if its my subconscious trying to block certain memories or is it because of brain damage caused by the failed attempt.
As far I can remember I took around double the recommended dose followed by doubling phenytoin sodium dosage too. I've used the alternative to metocloprmide, name of which I can't remember but I'm pretty sure it was mentioned in the ppeh handbook.
I remember following the 48 hour anti-emetic regimen followed by drinking the mixture in the middle of the night. Then I woke up at a hospital bed. Suffice to say I've faild and that something went wrong. This mixture was supposed to be work, specially at double the dosage.
I remember right after drinking the mixture I had a horrible aftertaste in my mouth and I drank some honey which I had prepared already before drinking the mixture. Then I lied down to my bed and I felt like my body is becoming numb and for whatever reason my drops of water were coming out of my eyes and no I wasn't crying. I remember thinking it was weird and it felt painful to keep my eyes open. Last thing I remember was playing a music on my laptop and then closing my eyes. Although one thing I did or I think I did was I was lying down sideways.
After recovery I was told that someone found me the next day at a time which should be around 8-12 hours from the time I drank the mixture. And that foamy stuff was coming out of my mouth. Then they took me to the hospital.
I'm wondering what really happened or what could've messed it up? This mixture is supposed to be work and according to some toxic data found on legit websites its supposed to work at suggested dosage and I took double the suggested amount. Please note that taking double the amount for this isn't or shouldn't be a bad thing. It should work nontheless.
After waking up in the hospital I knew that I had to comply and try to recover. Which I did and it took a long time to recover. Then I've decided to give life another try or atleast try something. Needless to say life has its way of getting to you and to be honest even while recoverying and giving life another try I've never disagreed with the fact that people should have the right to choose regarding death.
Here I am back again looking for a way out.
I've access to the same medicines again and this time I also have access to metoclopramide and I can easily get 2 or 3 times the dosage, I think.
However after the failiure last time, I don't want history to repeat itself.
I would like to know theories or anything in regards to what went wrong and possibly how to fix it.
(on a sidenote, I have a feeling maybe the medications weren't 100% pure but other than that I have no clue)
Also I was thinking would it work if I take the same mixture and dive in a pool or bathtub maybe (forgive my ignorance if this sounds naive)
I can also get surgical bladees and tropical anesthetic cream but again I don't know if the combination goes well together.
I'm new to this forum.
I'm not sure which prefix applies here, story or help. Its sort of both.
I think I've been here before but I could be wrong. (forgive me if posting this is against the websites rules). Previously I visited a website with the same name with .com at the end. I tried to find it but it doesn't work and while searching around a bit this website came up.
Previously I tried with petothal / thiopentone sodium. I don't remember all the details well because since I've recovered or partly recovered I've been forgetting somethings and certain things from that time. I don't know if its my subconscious trying to block certain memories or is it because of brain damage caused by the failed attempt.
As far I can remember I took around double the recommended dose followed by doubling phenytoin sodium dosage too. I've used the alternative to metocloprmide, name of which I can't remember but I'm pretty sure it was mentioned in the ppeh handbook.
I remember following the 48 hour anti-emetic regimen followed by drinking the mixture in the middle of the night. Then I woke up at a hospital bed. Suffice to say I've faild and that something went wrong. This mixture was supposed to be work, specially at double the dosage.
I remember right after drinking the mixture I had a horrible aftertaste in my mouth and I drank some honey which I had prepared already before drinking the mixture. Then I lied down to my bed and I felt like my body is becoming numb and for whatever reason my drops of water were coming out of my eyes and no I wasn't crying. I remember thinking it was weird and it felt painful to keep my eyes open. Last thing I remember was playing a music on my laptop and then closing my eyes. Although one thing I did or I think I did was I was lying down sideways.
After recovery I was told that someone found me the next day at a time which should be around 8-12 hours from the time I drank the mixture. And that foamy stuff was coming out of my mouth. Then they took me to the hospital.
I'm wondering what really happened or what could've messed it up? This mixture is supposed to be work and according to some toxic data found on legit websites its supposed to work at suggested dosage and I took double the suggested amount. Please note that taking double the amount for this isn't or shouldn't be a bad thing. It should work nontheless.
After waking up in the hospital I knew that I had to comply and try to recover. Which I did and it took a long time to recover. Then I've decided to give life another try or atleast try something. Needless to say life has its way of getting to you and to be honest even while recoverying and giving life another try I've never disagreed with the fact that people should have the right to choose regarding death.
Here I am back again looking for a way out.
I've access to the same medicines again and this time I also have access to metoclopramide and I can easily get 2 or 3 times the dosage, I think.
However after the failiure last time, I don't want history to repeat itself.
I would like to know theories or anything in regards to what went wrong and possibly how to fix it.
(on a sidenote, I have a feeling maybe the medications weren't 100% pure but other than that I have no clue)
Also I was thinking would it work if I take the same mixture and dive in a pool or bathtub maybe (forgive my ignorance if this sounds naive)
I can also get surgical bladees and tropical anesthetic cream but again I don't know if the combination goes well together.
